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Surreal New Year..

2012-01-02T17:40:00.000-08:00

Wow.. A year. 2011 has been one of the most if not eventful, the most emotional one. This year I've discovered sides of me I never knew existed. That I made myself vulnerable, codependent, yet somehow mocked and isolated because of it. This year, I lost my way with words.. That ability to express myself through writing, even lost my journal. This year, I took advantage of (to my own surprise) my good looks and charm, so to speak.. to the point I cant even befriend a decent girl without the pretense that Im just a player, thanks to circulating rumors throughout campus. This year, I thought I had a bestfriend.. you know, that person Im open to and fully trusted. Only to realize it was just by some illusion from an awesome summer. I've been a martyr, a loner, suicidal, streetkid, joker, playboy, and what totals to a very long year of self discovery and immersion. I learned how to love and from a brief period, be loved.

This new year brings another chance to prove myself, be who I wanna be and make a change if not to my own but to another kid's life somehow. Lead by experience and no longer be a lost puppy that follows others around without cause. Continue to trust that pal I still value without losing myself. Oh and yeah, for the 2nd time.. I spent the newyear on our rooftop.. it was magical, surrounded by fireworks all over town. alone on that roof caring about nothing else and and feels like Im on the music vid of k.perry's firework.. yeah It sounds stupid, me singing out loud under fireworks but you gotta admit its kinda cool.

FlairBlast..

2011-09-13T00:40:00.000-07:00

Booze, Exams & Best friends.. A lot has happened over the past few months.. Feels like a lifetime ago, the last time I posted here. What is there to tell, the 1st semester was different. There is change.. I finally feel purpose.. A decent peer group, a worthy profession.. This semester, I found myself a part of the campus flair guild.. An org dedicated in flair tending and mixology.

Planking, Flairing, Mischief.. pretty much what a typical college student would be sharing with his bestpal.. One of the highlights of this semester would be my 1st ever flair competition. Normally the guild requires new members to train for months before joining competitions but in my case it was different. Despite having the least experience, as punishment for planking around campus I was required to join.. I made a mess of course, but it was a very invigorating and educational experience.

Open Parties.. A weekly ritual for the kids around these parts.. You'll be surprised how young the party animals are today.. We, my pals & I ofcourse are one of 'em. At first, it started out all fun you know.. then it came to us, why not "party... and earn". Thus a new gig came to mind: Bartenders for open parties..\m/

checkout:Flair.ph on Facebook.

Hdd Mv Launch..

2011-05-05T11:02:00.000-07:00

Hey Daydreamer Music Video Launch! april27 At Capone's Makati... When we heard about the event, my Bro and I immediately cleared out our schedules and went.

The music video was directed by Bianca King and Enzo Valdez. Bianca also reavealed that other friends helped with make-up done by Bubbles Paraiso, styling from Rhian Ramos. Maggie Wilson-Consunji also provided the location. Jasmine Curtis-Smith is the lead girl in the video.

With a successful first single and unwavering support from fans & friends... somedaydream will surely release an album soon. A new trend for the local music scene, electro pop.. Let's support our very own! For more updates check out his page on Facebook and follow him on twitter @sdrez.

hey day dreamer..

2011-03-07T07:34:00.000-08:00

been a while since I got into OPM.. last night I went with a pal to eastwood to check this band he's raving about...

Someday dream.. a proudly pinoy electro pop, one-man band. Namely Rez Toledo, this guy from ateneo. Managed by Champ, from HALE. I guess if you regularly tune to local radio stations like magic88.9 or rx93.1, you already heard someday dream's first single "hey daydreamer". Apparently champ heard someday dream play and decided to mentor the young guy. Pretty cool actually, he formed Mecca, a music company that will market, produce and foster young musicians.

The pic above is taken at eastwood. (c/o abby lavienne) we got champ, patrick (my pal), rez (someday dream), and yours truly.

Let's all support local artists.. the awesome music industry.. Someday dream, something to watch out for in the future.

Post Valentine Disorder..

2011-02-28T19:40:00.000-08:00

2 years ago I made this mix cd for my friends as a xmas gift.. entitled “Friends, Lovers, or Nothing”. I was then in a very emotional state, I lost two women I cared about. One I loved from afar, she never turned back.. and the other loved me, but I hurt her by failing to give back. Then here I am, years later.. finding myself in the same emotional state. Maybe not in the same situation, but the same ordeal of the heart.

This is what I love about music. It is transcendent. It is timeless. It is.. truth.

This month.. I found love, more like it found me. It is not planned and just sorta happened. First couple of weeks was awesome, we had fun, made new friends, but in the long run I started to question myself. We share interests true, but we don’t connect, personally in so many levels.. no spark. Thus my decision to just remain friends.. I wont hurt her anymore by leading her on. Save the friendship, save our group, to save the good times we spend together.

If there’s anything I learned this month, is that love is not just about the fun, the adventure, the drama or the parties you share together, but when you both share this very unique and deep connection that is beyond words. You feel it.. with your heart.

day of the Yawn..

2011-02-13T23:51:00.000-08:00

1- vb
1. to open the mouth wide and take in air deeply, often as in involuntary reaction to tiredness, sleepiness, or boredom

source: dictionary.com

Saturday.
I think I never yawned so many times before that I literally had to struggle to keep myself awake. I mean, I find myself at smx convention center for chefs-on-parade.. interested on watching this kitchen demo with this Belgian chef and I just cant stop myself from dozing off. It's embarrassing really with the room filled with fellow students and young professionals. Then there's that ambush double date at mall of asia, that some friends orchestrated just so we (me and this girl friend of mine) have some supposed time together.. they got us tickets for My Valentine Girls. The entire what.. 2 hour duration of the film, I like yawned for every 5 minutes.. not exactly the romantic mood they were trying to give us. To understand the yawning, I guess we should go back to what happened the day before.

- 24 hours ealier -

Friday.
just finished my classes and hanging out with the flair guild. (this org that focuses on flair bartending.) I asked my girl friend to teach me some moves.. you know maneuvering bottles with your hands. yes, kinda like juggling. Then I remembered my friend asking me if I wanted to attend this party. and I do, but I needed 200 bucks. In times of utmost desperation, I find myself literally begging my brother for help. Trust me, this is so unlikely of me. I never asked my brothers for anything all my life and this is already the 2nd time. The 1st was a couple of summers ago when I needed some cash to go on a road trip with friends up north. Thankfully he pulled through and I went.. I guess there's really no need for an elaborate description of how the party went.. all I know is, I had fun. got home round 3? and with a 5am call time at school, all I had was an hour long power nap ahead of me. surreal enough, I watched Burlesque in between that time line.

back to Saturday.
so yeah, after the movie our stay at mall of asia basically consisted of long walks, awkward silence, sea side, and yeah we got lost.. separated from our friends. but in the end it turned out to be more like of a bonding solitude with my girl friend. good thing we got back to our group just in time for departure. When we got home, the group decided to waste the night away at the local pub. and so we did. To my own surprise, my drowsiness was swept like the wind but still there. So just after a couple of cocktail towers and beer I already got tipsy. We all had fun. The getting to know stage with my girl friend and blockmates. lol.

Sunday.
too tired..... just slept all day.

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Anyway, I have more but I guess this post is getting unusually long. I'm just happy to say.. I'm good. great! Living life. With valentines tomorrow.. college fair... and davao for the weekend! so much to look forward this week. :)

Good Life..

2011-02-05T01:07:00.000-08:00

life turned quite unexpectedly these last couple of days.

wed - I was officially admitting to myself that I'm over my last girl. Opening my heart to new possibilities.

thurs - We didnt have any classes, the faculty went out of town or something.. so with a couple of pals and friends of pals we had a pool party. At first I was a bit uptight, if you may call it at that. I'm not really a lax person when it comes to meeting new people. But with booze, karaoke, heightened diving, we let loose and had fun. In the midst of the drunken revelry, I found myself hand in hand with this girl.. and together we dived. Ofcourse pals started teasing and hence the introduction. Afterwards went to an after party at the local pub. then met with an old friend at ice monster.

fri - the usual hungover. good thing my class was not until noon.

oh and yeah, I got a mild concussion.. or atleast I think it was. I bumped my head while swimming. When I surfaced, I literally got dazed and confused. Didnt bleed as much but had this slightly open wound in my forehead.

as if fate opened a door as I closed an old one. I met this pretty awesome girl. We share a few interests.. music, online games lol. and there may be a possibility of something more.. but I dunno yet. I'll let you know if something goes.

Loner with a highly evolved defense mechanism..

2011-01-30T12:27:00.000-08:00

My rules for survival are simple. Don't stand out, never raise your hand in class and no drama.

you know how people say that 1st impressions are important? well I guess I'm not really one of them until I hear what other people think of me when they 1st met me. people perceive me as pretty bad ass, a rocker, that I might have been a member of a punk rockband, an emo. That I give off this kind of resonating aura. Well I asked this girl I liked and she said "smart, good looking, englisero." Ofcourse when asking people close to you they would only say the good qualities and skip out on the downside. Then last night some pals told me that our classmates were afraid of me. so I was like "whut?". Apparently some of 'em find me unapproachable, so serious all the time that they would think twice before talking to me under pain of physical violence. lol. well personally I think it's kinda cool but I guess in the long run it'll be a bummer. maybe I should work on that and break some of my own rules for a change.

Blissful days ended to start again..

2011-01-28T03:25:00.000-08:00

So here's what you missed these last few days on me..

sports fest, a 3 day affair. no classes but we're still required to meet with our professors for attendance. pretty much sucky and boring since I didn't join any games and our department doesn't really have one of those solid support system called cheer leading. But enjoyed bonding with new pals over karaoke, swim plans and booze.

nightlife, still awesome. meeting up with call center friends for midnight snacks / yosi break. more like for them. lol. strolling the highway on fast-paced motorbikes. oh and I witnessed another accident. I was crossing the street when this 10 wheeler truck literally fell over in front of me. It was like 3 o'clock in the morning and it was dead silent. I think it took me like 5 mins to process what just happened then joined the gathering crowd to see if the driver is alright. Surreal enough, it was in moments like those that I somehow feel alive you know. not that I enjoy seeing people suffer, it's just a lingering reminder that life is short. we gotta "Live like we're dying!" (music)

just another awesome weekend ahead. t'morrow classes resume and I just got swim class in the morning.. then party night. gonna meet with new pals and brood over awesome music and a beer tower. Sunday, got brunch with the family then hopefully go hang at my Alma mater with old friends.

~if only I have a camera to document and share my life experiences.. >_<

Literested...

2011-01-24T05:06:00.000-08:00

my all time favorite subject.. English. wherever school I am at, it's like my thing. I'm a speaker, you know I'm actually good at spontaneous public speaking. But I can't say the same when it comes to writing. >_<

Today we had this assignment.. we were asked to bring 20 assorted pics (with ourselves included in 'em of course) and write this paper: our life ladder. basically an outline of the stuff we've been through since we were born. literally, so we all had trouble trying to remember what we were up to when we were like what 2,3 years old and onwards. Then we placed it all in an envelope along with our contact details. We were asked to form a circle, then counter clock wise we passed our envelopes along. When the counting stopped, the owner of the envelope that lands in our hands would be the subject of our next paper. So basically, using the stuff inside (life ladder, pics) we're gonna write a biography of that particular classmate. Personally I find the activity awesome. But on second thought, it'll be tough. I'm acquainted with the one I got but on a personal level I dunno the person one bit. Then again, I guess that's the whole point. To get to know that person. good thing the one who got mine is a girl, it'll be weird if another dude started staring on my pics and stalk me on the net. lol. So anyway using the vague details I better start conceptualizing how to do this thing.. 15 pages!

Oh and yeah, it's our sports fest this week. I didn't want to make a fool out of myself so I didn't try-out for any sport. >_< I'm not really knowledgeable nor experienced when it comes to sports, that's why I just play for fun.

Fail Sunday...

2011-01-23T17:22:00.000-08:00

well let's see,, for three consecutive days basically the weekend, gigs are all fail. friday, I was suppose to meet my pals for a party in commonwealth = fail. saturday, I had swim class in the morning. awesome. took time to drip and stretch. afternoon had a tour guiding seminar. was suppose to meet my pals for a drink = fail. well sorta. only one came through which is well okay, had pizza and beer. came sunday morning, bit hungover on coffee. burned some movies I downloaded then watched with the family.. went to this lot we own at burol,taytay to check it out and had a family picnic. I was hopping to jog with pals = but fail. as usual no reply from the kids. well I guess being optimistic has its limits. all of this gig-advocacy thing I had going on is giving me a headache. >_<

what a stressful weekend.

love DRUNK!

2011-01-16T23:03:00.000-08:00

literally. saturday night as usual, is party night with pals. I went out to the local bar and met up with my pals from campus. everything is going smooth, ambience, beer, cool music.. all is well until this girl I like, as in really-like brought her new "guy". So ofcourse I played it cool but inside I was basically messed up. All I was sure of that night, I wanna binge drink. Next thing I new, I was high* and already drunk texting people. Which was a first time for me, I guess I vented out even though I didnt realize what I was doing. As every night should end, I walked home drunk...

Next thing I realized, I was in my room talking to a friend on the phone. funny, I dont even remember talking or calling anyone. Then darkness..

I woke up a couple of hours later hungover, which is just right because I have to go to school for nstp(on a sunday who does that?) so I mustered all my strength and took in all hungover remedies known to man. >_< Realizing what I have been texting to people last night, a sudden rush of shame engulfed me. I hoped no one remember anything too.

I spent the rest of the day at marikina, I sprinted at the park, hangout at starbucks & just enjoyed the cool weather hoping I wont run into anyone I knew and.. maybe to forget what I felt.

WHAT IF...

2011-01-11T03:09:00.000-08:00

This morning I got a text message from a friend, a very enticing proposition for a summer getaway. But like every trip, it needs a suitable amount to finance and without a steady income I highly doubt I could accumulate such an amount in 3 months. That really bums me out, this might be the 1^st time I’d miss out on a summer trip with friends. I’m not really a thinker you know, I mean the kind of person who would plan ahead instead I would go all like “I’ll just cross that bridge when I get there.” Like the summer of 2010, we had an out of town trip and I needed cash. I didn’t stress over it so the day before departure I literally had to beg my brother for cash so I can go. I guess he just gave me some because that was the 1^st time I ever asked him for anything and that was the time when I was cooped up at home for months so I guess he understood my need to getaway and unwind. But I doubt I could do so again for this summer. I’ll have to figure it out... and soon.

INVESTMENT...

2011-01-09T03:02:00.000-08:00

The previous year, I survived with my social life intact using this old battered china phone that I got from an aunt. Some buttons are already missing, the battery is faulty, had dysfunctional speakers and a damaged LCD. It was pretty much a pain especially when I have to contact my friends on a gig. Until a couple of days ago, in the middle of a very important phone call it just gave out and literally fell apart. The obvious and logical option left was to get a new one.

Counting my expenses the past New Year parties and from a couple of wreck less shopping there is very little left of my Christmas earnings. Maybe I can’t afford a cool camera phone but I had enough to get a functional one which is good enough for me as long as I can call and text people.

As I charged the nearby retailer, I was counting on the cheapest one out on the market which is a model from Cherry Mobile but unfortunately they were out of stock. So I had to go with the next one which costs more than my allotted budget but still within my price range… this pretty cool, slim, sleek (and it’s black!) Samsung Cell.

Even though I’m flat broke (so what else is new) again, it was worth it. That evening I was heading out to meet a couple of pals and for a change it was pretty convenient to communicate with them compared with the one I used before. I feel better connected than ever. A new year, a new cell, that’s what I can call a good investment.

What I will NOT not do this 2011...

2011-01-04T20:31:00.000-08:00

I guess its never to late for a "Happy New Year!"

Well, you know how people at the start of the new year make all sorts of lists.. wishlist, bucket list, particularly lists that pertain to things that one wants to change with one's self. Me, I was not really a believer of writing down one on a piece of paper when I was younger (or in our generation's case, to type it down) but I guess change can be good, for the better so let me write one right now. >_<

~WALK OF SHAMEs.
you know what I'm talking about, no more sneaking out of somebody's room after spending the night... playing. lol.

~BUFF up.
let's face it, I'm not getting any younger. I should start to take care of myself. well I've already tried jogging every morning, playing sports in a weekly basis, maybe I'll just keep to to that routine and start being more health conscious. Goodbye scrawny emo kid from highschool.

~DRUNKOREXIA
well college is a phase where everyone get to experience, experiment and basically have fun. back then my friends and I party everyday (and sorta still today.) lol. the point is, having nothing to eat all day then drink all night. In all reality not healthy for my body.

~RELATIONSHIP status
I guess I'm just at that point of my life where hook-ups, casual flings, and friends with benefit does not suit me anymore. I wanna have someone to talk to, share my feelings with and share awesome day to night experiences. so Offficially I'm putting myself on the market and change that single status.

So I guess that's just about it.. for now. I wont be one of those people who put up long lists but never get to accomplish them. I'll start with these and hopefully when I look back I can say "Hey! I got to stick with my resolutions this year!" Mine's not really a walk in the park, but if I start now one step at a time I just might get lucky at the last one.. ;)

Wishlist 2010..

2010-12-06T06:07:00.000-08:00

Well I guess in true december tradition, its just about time to put up a wishlist and this time it will be much more practical and well affordable (more like realistic) than last year's so that it can be more easily referred to by some willing and very generous people out there. lol.

1. Alarm clock.
I seriously need to sate the universal need to wake up early, one big solution to my tardiness. I guess the "always late" guy is so last season.

2. Coffee Mug.
yes. my ultimate guilty pleasure. coffee 24/7. it so got out of hand that I started taking these calcium pills to counteract the bad effects of too much caffeine. >_<

3. 2011 journal.
I was skeptical at those stuff last year, I mean with all the technology around I would never guessed that I would be needing to keep one for myself. busy geek me.

4. Messenger bag.
just my kind. It will be nice to have a new one, as opposed to what I'm currently using for like almost 3 years. Black knitted thing, that actually belonged to my mom.. ssshh.

5. Parker pen refill.
I've been using this cool parker pen for the past I dunno almost 4 years? I'm not exactly sure, but I feel its gonna start to run dry soon.

6. CAn of lysol spray.
This year, we got 3 new dogs. roaming all around the house. so if you could only imagine the stench every morning when I get up for school. +_+

7. any RPG cd.
well being the comic geek, I spend most of my time playing video games. but dont get me wrong I have a social life. lol.

8. any series dvd.
preferably bros & sisters season 3 and 4? just got cliff hanged with the family drama the other week and i'm on the edge on finding a copy myself but (to my surprise) I cant find the time.

9. a good old Novel.
I'm already on the 6th out of (so far) 12 books of the wheel of time series. I inherited the fantasy fiction mania from my brothers. >_<

10. JOSE CUERVO.
a good holiday never goes without booze! specially if I'll be part of SMP.. samahang malamig ang pasko. lol.

so there you have it folks. 10 things this kid wants for christmas.. good hunting!

Good Ol' days..

2010-12-01T05:29:00.000-08:00

I HATE it when classes get cancelled.

Here I am, 7 o'clock in the morning, all dressed, ready to go and when I was about to head out I received a text saying my one and only morning class got cancelled. Dang it. I got so stressed out, I drank two cups of coffee and now high on caffeine waiting out by my cell for some darn good news of a miraculous last-minute gig or something.

I remember when I used to love having no classes, back in highschool waking up in a rainy morning and standing by the television waiting for an announcement of suspension. Then I would shout for joy then jump right back into bed. I miss that.

Yes, I know what I sound like these past few days.. Like some desperate, whiny house kid that complains and mopes alot. lol.>_< Just being realistic though, hopefully something interesting would come up soon. Some positive feedback would also help, if only.

Hey it's almost december. The family's not really into the "holiday" mood. All we got is the usual christmas tree that we own like since forever and just that traditional series of dinners with relatives. What I really look forward to every christmas season(no not just booze and lonely chicks) , is the food trip!

Every night I would go downtown and indulge in local delicacies like puto bungbong & bibingka. Then there's.. Breakfast Club with college pals, that's simbang gabi for us. I would wake up 4am every morning, grab a cab and meet up by Something Fishy at eastwood. Breakfast buffet then a couple of beers. After like 9 or something, we would play RockBand at katipunan then head out to class. It was awesome.

Ah the good ol' days. December 2010, what up?

SOLICE..

2010-11-25T02:47:00.000-08:00

Daily life is as always boring at the guadalupe manor.. I would usually wake up, drink coffee, go to school, go home, sleep, then the cycle starts all over again. I know the semester just started but I feel it's gonna be a long and empty one. I'm too broke to go out and gallavant all over the metro with my pals, I don't have internet access at home so that makes life sucks over here and well most of my school friends had trasferred to the higher ups so I cant help but feel exiled up here. This is what I do most of the time now, listen to music, brood over coffee while I write in my disfunctional laptop and when I get the chance I would update my blog.

The past couple of weeks, I've been trying to bury myself with academics but.. (bragging aside) I'm kinda unchallenged with the workload, I guess that's just expected being 1st year again technically. Usually by this time you'll find me in some ragtag bar and doing shots with blockmates or maybe roadtripping to some cool places. (yes with an awesome sense of pride) Despite all of that last sem, I had a 1.75 gpa. LOL. That's me, serious in academics and in partying. But this time around, I dunno. Things are still unraveling.

I just feel left-out you know, everybody else seems to be moving on. Most of my friends are already in their third year and some already graduating. Some of them would head out to work, find their passions and just live out their lives. Me, I'm still at the exact same place when I graduated high school 3 years ago. Still the same kid who's unsure of his place in the world.

Nope, I dont wanna drown myself in self pity and linger with the ghosts of my past. As I watch the sunset, all I can do is remain hopeful. Tomorrow will be another day. Life can be a bitch, you'll never know what will hit you and wether it's a good thing or a bad thing, that's up to you to decide. Risk it, that's what make life... well life.

A month of hearts.. not!

2010-11-20T02:46:00.000-08:00

The girl who left and took my heart.. just got back.

This sem, I dunno if its fate but we got seperated and we barely see each other anymore. I guess It'll be healthy to be away from the girl I loved because I know we can never be together, for she loves another. Yes, sounds like a scene from a teleserye. LOL. which practically my love life is right now.

and I'm not about to waste my last teen year chasing after someone who doesn't care about me.

"To get over someone, you need to get under someone."

I usually get that a lot. So I decided to go bar hopping all over the metro with a couple of friends the other night and all I can say is.. "bang bang bangidibang I say bang bang bang" LOL.

It will not be easy to forget her, but it will not be impossible either. Time works magic.

So I'll focus more on academics, maybe a little casual dating less drama and I'll try to reconnect with my HS friends. I miss 'em dearly, I remember the time when I was "the chain" that holds the group together. Somehow I just got tired of having my faith misplaced and gave up, but if there is something I learned over the years is that that they were the closest thing to a bestfriend I never had.. and that'll be something worth fighting for.

POST DEATHLY HOLLOWS...

2010-11-19T02:45:00.000-08:00

When I watched the film with two of my nephews.. the youngest fell asleep within the first 20 minutes then halfway through the other shouted "I don't wanna watch anymore, I wanna go home!" LOL.

I think it was a good call, splitting the last installment into two parts. Practically all the dull moments was in part1 and ofcourse we can expect all the excitement & action in a bigbang conclusion in part2. Can't wait! >_<

Loved how they started part1, how they depicted Hermione bewitching her parents as she left home in the opening scene. Genious.

70% faithful to the book. nuff said.

A bit dissapointed with some scenes though, they could've improved on how they presented 'em. But I guess good nonetheless, close enough to the book as they can get. Unlike the past HP films, they didn't left out much scenes from this one.

Well I guess I'll be one of the thousands of HP fans that will be anticipating for the finale next year and I'm thinking of purchasing my own wand, bring it with me on the premiere and maybe duel with a fellow fan. LOL.

TIL DEATHLY HALLOWS..

2010-11-15T05:00:00.000-08:00

“The Ministry has fallen. Scrimgeour is dead. They are coming.”

When I got to that part stated above, I seriously got chills. Deathly Hallows, the last installment of the Harry Potter series... My first hard-bound book purchased and now, the movie version is coming up and the entire manor reeks of anticipation. >_<

Already halfway through re-reading book 7 and by tradition, HP marathon! Started watching Sorcerer’s Stone up to Half Blood Prince… A movie a day till the big date. Still looking for a decent dvd-copy of Half Blood Prince though, got one I can borrow? Oh and since my bros are also HP geeks, they’re going to treat me with ‘em on the last full show this Friday. It’s gonna be awesome!

The countdown to the beginning of the end… well, begins. LOL

Sem Break...

2010-10-15T21:33:00.000-07:00

with the semester coming to a close, parties,gigs, & events left and right just keep on popping like acne.. and now I find myself facing a full - weekend of awesome!

but afterward.. I’m seriously gonna spend some time working on:

taking back my room (yes spring cleaning)

taking back my health ( due to insistent weight issues)

and taking back my self..

no more heartaches.

the break will be all about finding myself again if not re-inventing myself and start the second semester fresh, new, it’s the only way I’ll make it through. what? lol

*que in: ashes & wine - a fine frenzy..

new kid who sang billionaire too..

2010-09-25T00:05:00.000-07:00

couple of weeks ago, we had a musical play for our eng1 midterm..

I played this hot rich guy that's been buzzed on by fan-girls.. (ok obviously not true-to-life) lol.

I had two major roles.. I had to model around in tune with “nothing on you”.. then kinda lip-sync “billionaire” while walking around the stage.

On stage, we all felt psyched, nervous, and anxious.. all at the same time.. I'll call it a "glee high" lol. But all in all we had a good time. It reminded me of how I liked the theater.

days later, kidss around the campus started addressing me as “kuya billionaire” in classes and around the corridors.. >_<

(pics to follow?) soon.

bloody sunday,,

2010-08-01T07:08:00.000-07:00

Today was different; I never would’ve guessed it when I woke up this morning. Sundays for me is usually a well-spent day in front of a computer or television, but because I skipped out on NSTP in my last school I had to take it this semester and it’s every Sunday morning, great.

I woke up this morning rolling off the wrong side of the bed, literally. I hated waking up at 7am. As usual I’ve been my tardy self; call time is 7:30 I got there by 8, a bad habit that I’ll never be rid off. In my last school, NSTP is spent at a classroom and the only culminating activity is a tree planting activity at some province. But at this one, NSTP is at the gym and we’re not just one class, we are joined by the entire first year batch from the different college departments. When we got off, I hung out with my block mates to the “Warehouse” for a drink. It’s this hidden warehouse-like place a couple of blocks from school, where kids can indulge in binge drinking, play pool, karaoke, or just getaway and chill. Afterwards we headed to a block mate’s house to booze more and hangout.

It’s times like these when we make new friends and create memories. Times that I wish I could have with my old friends. I can’t help but miss them, I never get see them anymore these days. I guess we all just have different lives to live now, we’re all busy with school and because I’m phoneless & no internet I don’t have any communication with them too. All I can do now is just look at the murals that we made in my room, listen to our road mix and remember the good times. Wherever they are I hope they’re doing awesome… and know that this bard is singing for them.

Testing the waters..

2010-07-30T07:07:00.000-07:00

First week at a new school, its July the 4^th week of the semester. Being a late enrollee has its pros and cons. Well I get to be the cool guy who walks in class late and gets to be excused from the past work he missed. People just can’t get enough of the typical boy-next-door look and can’t help but introduce themselves. Though after a while the special attention subsides, just like a honeymoon phase. Downside, people already know each other and I have to go out of my way just to learn the ropes of my new school.

This week was all about getting to know my block mates; I hung out and befriended the many personalities that consists my block section. There’s the typical party crowd, boozing and happy go lucky kids. Then the geeks, hard working kids that study every lecture down to each syllable. And so on… the universal status quo.

How I Spent My Summer 2010

2010-06-14T19:53:00.000-07:00

A picture is worth a thousand words.. nuff said.

much to school

2010-06-12T19:45:00.000-07:00

“pano maaalala ng puso ko kung hindi maalala ng isip ko.”

So who watches Rubi? My life right now is pretty much like a roller coaster. One can say my situation is similar to Alejandro, (portrayed by Jake Cuenca). Not about his heartache with the antagonizing protagonist; Rubi (portrayed by Angelica Panganiban) but more about his family… more specifically the sickness that hit his mother.

So anyway.. I’m going back to school.

But there are two conditions: First, I’ll be attending my childhood school which is literally in front of our house and second, I gotta take a medical course.

Pretty much against my will, but I got no choice.

bummer. so much for independence day huh. but let’s not dwell with what sucks but look forward to the up side.

how do you keep a girl from becoming your girlfriend?

2010-04-24T01:35:00.000-07:00

simple.

the rules with girls are the same with gremlins..

1. never get them wet.

~don’t let her take a shower at your place.

2. keep them away from sunlight.

~don’t ever see them during the day.

3. never feed them after midnight.

~she doesn’t sleep over and you don’t have breakfast with you.. ever.

-Barney Stinson (how I met your mother)

selective amnesia..

2010-04-21T01:28:00.000-07:00

So up till recent events, I’ve been meaning to start a journal. A friend of mine has one. She has it since… ever I think. She reminded me of the things I used to say back in high school. I’m all like befuddled, “wow, really?”. Significant moments defining who I was back then and I totally forgot. Memories are important.. and what pains me is too forget certain parts of my life.. sometimes I can be forgetful of dates, things, minor details, even acquaintances. I call it my very own selective amnesia.

~ oh yeah. The vamp diaries, the series I can't help but watch. I dunno, I'm just drawn to it. I might add the novel series to my summer reading list.

SoundTrack..

2010-04-11T12:33:00.000-07:00

prior to experiences..

First = Ikaw nga, south border
Humiliation = Go the distance, (hercules theme)
Highschool = I'm just a kid, simple plan
Prom = Miserable at best, mayday parade
Breakup = Where I stood, missy higgins
sober = you found me, matt girau
It's not you, its me = stay away, the honorary title
graduation = always love, nada surf
Lonely = Come undone,jackson waters
Hoping = follow through, gavin degraw
struggle = the climb, miley cyrus
finding myself = you, switchfoot
birthday = 23, jimmy eat world
Summer = Quicksand, bethany joy galeotti
Crushing = say it again, marie digby
a bit of romance = true, ryan cabrera
college = the freshmen, the verve pipe
reputation = false pretense, red jumpsuit apparatus
in love = fall for you, secondhand serenade
date = today was a fairytale, taylor swift
hook up = she will beloved, maroon 5
inspiration = live like were dying, kris allen
life = never say never, the fray

If my life is a movie, this might be the soundtrack.

road mix..

2010-03-30T21:29:00.000-07:00

bags packed, sun block checked, with everything set, one more thing.. road mix! a long drive will be really really booring w/o some awesome sound.. with yet another badly edited cover, check it out:

1.Brick by boring brick - paramore
2.Disenchanted - my chemical romance
3.First time - lifehouse
4.Follow through - gavin degraw
5.Full moon - black ghosts
6.Havent met you yet - michael buble
7.I miss you - incubus
8.If we ever meet again - timbaland ft. katy perry
9.Lay me down - the wreckers
10.Let's just fall in love again - jason castro
11.Live like we're dying - kris allen
12.Must get out - maroon 5
13.Quicksand - bathany joy galeotti
14.Stay away - the honorary title
15.The take over, The break's over - fall out boy
16.Vacation - simple plan
17.Watcha say - jason derulo
18.You Found me - matt giraud

we're all set for summer!

natural preppy..

2010-03-24T02:11:00.000-07:00

After two years of college, with no uniform, we all wore get-ups every single day and with that inevitable outfit repeating once in a while. I'm the kind of dude that normally doesn't give a damn bout what I wear (usually). I would just grab something in my wardrobe and ran for it because I'm always the late guy in class. But what I did unconsciously, my usual get ups include: long sleeves, collared shirts and layering. So despite my thing for the emo/rocker look and that cool loner reputation, some college pals pointed out (in fact and just realized myself) that I' am a natural preppy.

friends, lovers, or nothing..

2010-03-14T22:30:00.000-07:00

Music, such a distinct force that can touch our emotions and express our lives. The one thing I turn to. The one thing that I can truly say I love. Thus last Christmas, when I was broke but still wanted to give my friends a meaningful gift.. I thought "why not a compilation CD."

Last year, a friend gave me one and until now I still listen to it. Music can be an unbreakable pillar on life. Something we turn to and sometimes even rely on. So I decided to make one for my friends.

Here's what in it:

1.Come undone (acoustic version) - jackson waters
2.Crazier - taylor swift
3. Defying gravity - glee cast
4. Flightless bird, american mouth - iron & wine
5. Heartbeats - jose gonzalez
6. Honestly - bethany joy lenz
7. Irvine - Kelly clarkson
8. Kindly unspoken - kate voegele
9. Never say never - the fray
10. Quicksand - bethany joy galeotti
11. Sana Ako'y marinig - zoe sandejas
12. Say it again - marie digby
13. Taking chances - glee cast
14. The call - regina spektor
15. True - ryan cabrera
16. Where I stood - missy higgins
17. Your call - secondhand serenade
18. You're breautiful - james blunt

Yes, with matching cover art. Which is badly edited might I add. Why "friends, lovers, or nothing"? I'm not entirely sure myself.. With all the mixed feelings and just that sense of inspiration, it just poofed out of my mind.

Distributed by my (still) fictional label: Red Gate Records.. All came out fine, but with limited funds I was only able to give out a few copies to my girl- friends.

Months later, I still find refuge on my CD. A light out on the bickering dark. I could only hope that it does the same for my friends. I'm listening to it right now, looking for that same feeling of fate and inspiration when I was making it for my friends.

let's go to the movies!

2010-03-12T17:03:00.000-08:00

yes. I'm a fan of the series..

Last movie I saw was, Alice in Wonderland. pretty awesome. more like a sequel, set years after alice first visited wonderland.. all in all, they did a good job.

Greek mythology is back.. Saw Percy Jackson & the lightning thief. awesome. next to look out for is Clash of the titans..

not to mention Prince of Persia: sands of time.. yes I played the video game series.

oh and by the way, I was hoping to watch Remember Me with this friend of mine. I'll keep hoping that would push through.

Let's go to the movies!

TikTok..

2010-02-22T22:54:00.000-08:00

So after yet, another awesome weekend.. triple kill! I'm just keeping my fingers crossed. Hope s'more awesome weekends to come, to the point that "god like!" will just sound up. lol. (yes, I miss playing dota)

So how to begin.. Saturday was a buzz. I spent the day at our ancestral house in downtown, taytay. Apparently it was the town's fiesta. People are like all over the streets. There was a parade of local politicians and celebrities. People going door to door in costumes, asking for donations. (pretty much like halloween) But the great part for me was the food o'course. Town's just buzzing with gaiety and revelry.

Night came so swiftly, I find myself rushing to marikina for a friend's birthday party. I took a jeep til panorama (the only place in the area I'm familiar with because a college pal lives near there). Then walked a few miles looking for the right street of the venue. I got lost for a bit but after a while, I finally arrived. You know the rest.. "shots shots shots!" we all had an awesome time.

Sunday, I ran late for a breakfast club meeting with friends at the fort. We had some common friends that were participating at the Century tuna superbods run- thingy. so we came to chill and support them. Then the rest of the day was all about health and fitness, which is cool. you know, maintaining a fit and awesome body is important too. so to speak, lol.

Monday, holiday. no classes for the kids. Spent the better part of the day at home. caring for the pups & fish, chilling at the garden, playing with nephews and just being the cool couch potato that I am. haha! no, I burrowed the 10th book of the wheel of time series from my brother and now I'm starting to read it. I just feel without, when I don't have a fiction book to read. Evening came and my bro took a split second decision and invited the entire family to watch the lightning thief, which was awesome you guys should check it out.

yes, I'm spontaneously blogging. >_< maybe a kickback from having no net access at home lately explains it. I have a good feeling It'll blow over soon, my bro kinda mentioned he'll grab a new hardrive for my laptop.. and maybe he'll throw in a phone too (I wish!) lol.

Family Guy..

2010-02-19T23:44:00.000-08:00

With all the free time I have in the day, I just can't help but re-acquaint myself at home and my family. I will wake up at 8 o'clock, go out in the garden, stretch, feed my fish, greet my puppies and head to the kitchen for coffee. Then in the afternoon I will await my nephews come home from school (which is literally in front of our house) and we will just play around, sometimes we share that geeky passion in playing starwars computer games.. haha!

As a statement, I decided to let my hair loose. (I mean, not have a haircut) And when I have no plans to go out, I tend to skip shaving.. Making me have that scruffy yet boy next door-type of look. Not to mention the annoying remarks of some relatives that I look like that guji person from abs-cbn and that constant appraise that I should just enter showbiz. I would always answer: "why not." but with it, a hint of uncertainty.

After the peaceful day set with the sun, night plans start to stir. I would usually go out and chill somewhere, but if not I would simply dine in with my mum and enjoy a good movie at home. Though there are times I'm required* to attend some family-related events.. So I would just fulfill my social obligations even if it gets in the way of my night life. >_<

This upcoming weekend holds just another awesome pretense. Once again I gotta venture to the unknown to join in with some pals to party and greet a friend happy birthday. Though phoneless and no Idea where to, nothing will stop me from reaching my destination. Pity though, some friends don't want to hang out just because I'm a hard person to pinpoint (being phoneless and all) which I find the lack of faith, offensive. I guess in these times, we'll get to know one's real friends.

That Day was A FairyTale..

2010-02-15T22:33:00.000-08:00

Valentine's Day.. (sigh) As an optimist, I'm one of those people who wakes up at valentine's morning with a smile and a sunny disposition. Not necessarily because I have a special someone, I'm just am. Though I send out my thoughts to those "I hate valentines" people.. We're all single here, but that doesn't mean we will be for the rest of our lives.. We all just have to be patient I guess.

Ofcourse valentines will not be without the flowers, chocolates.. and as an awesome bonus ,tikoy. (kung hei fat choi!) So how did I spent valentines? I guess the last few days count as a pre-valentines gig.. I hung out with a new friend around UP, had a couple of shots at katipunan then played rockband.. awesome. The next day, we watched this new movie: valentine's day at gateway. Together with pals, we all had a good time.

Saturday came and I just spent it with relatives and ballroom parties. I made sure I'm done with all the formalities that day so I've got sunday to myself. Valentines day came, I greeted my mum and had a magical morning. In the afternoon I went to eastwood for this sweets festival, free tastes and all.. (yes I have a huge sweet tooth) Valentines was all over the place.. You can see it in the people you greet, You can smell it in the air.

Being single didn't even made a difference in this special day of hearts. If anything, it made me appreciate the day more. You can feel the love around, and you can even share yours around. haha! As the day came to an end, as a tradition to myself: I had a celebratory glass of wine in salute of an awesome holiday. All in all, a great valentine weekend just filled with love.

LiveLikeWe'reDying..

2010-02-02T21:49:00.000-08:00

So this is crazy. Kris Allen's Live like we're dying, just wont stop ringing in my head these past few days. Even at this moment:

"Yeah… gotta start
Lookin at the hand of the time we’ve been given here
This is all we got and we gotta start pickin it
Every second counts on a clock that’s tickin’
Gotta live like we’re dying"

I just go like whoaa. But sometimes it just get to me, the things you can't think through the blur will start to feel clear, problems seem to wash away, the sun looks brighter as I walk by katipunan and music in heart I just can't help but smile. Then I start to have a very good day and it just keeps better.

Happiness. A feeling I'm just starting to acquaint myself with. But despite the happy-go-lucky life in the metro and some good show tunes, an empty void clots through the system that only the company of friends can fill.

Fried..

2010-01-29T22:11:00.000-08:00

So here it goes.. Laptop crashed, rendering it useless for a couple of months. Bro lends a hand then laptop's back online. Just after a couple of peaceful months, back to square one. Laptop's hardrive got fried again. (annoyed) So now I'm back to that lovely habit of mine. In the middle of the night, I would catch a jeepney to katipunan and rent some comp usage just to go online.

Some would find that habit of mine very hustle but hey, upside I get to enjoy the cool wind outside, get to grab some awesome coffee at starbucks and guilty fries at mcdo. Thus proving a pal's theory that I tend to get optimistic sometimes. What really sucks though, is losing all the files and programs. Specially my beloved music, I'll be damned for losing hundreds of songs I handpicked & downloaded over the months.. now I'm back to ol' & reliable radio and mix cd's.

So what I'm busying myself about.. I'm working on some papers at town hall for the small business start up that my aunt will finance for me. So far.. filing papers in different offices and gathering requirements is a b!tch but I guess it'll all be worth it once the place is up and running. So I grew fond with my mum's praise in how I keep my social life out & about despite being phoneless & just recently, internet-less (again). All I came to say was: "Hey, Look at me." LOL.

Promising weekend ahead. Advocacy events up, parties and benefit movie at eastwood. see you around kidss!

where I stood..

2010-01-16T02:32:00.000-08:00

A month back I started on working out. You know, starting to be more health-fit conscious. I run around the park every morning and I try with utmost difficulty, to watch what I eat. lol.

Coffee. One of my Liked- drinks, have it every brunch and sometimes even midnight. Then again, being fit conscious made myself to believe that it's toxic. So for months now, I've been caffeine free. But one of the re precautions I noticed: I was less productive without it. I used to write and scribble around, not much of a work but I play around with a lot of ideas. A bum of a work ethic, they called. So now I'm starting to fall to the temptations of caffeine again, and now I'm starting to balance out it all.

These past few days I've been having nights of "harmless fun". Taking on the metro like there's no tomorrow. But more to what I can admit, it's all a camouflage. In truth I've been jealous. I'm jealous of the people around me waking up in the morning and goes to work and school. I miss the morning rush and working up late. So I guess I've been trying to make myself not to think and just go out, live like we're dying. Despite how much I deny myself missing the people close to me, I really do and all I can do is watch & be happy for 'em.

new year, new you..

2009-12-31T14:49:00.000-08:00

Looking at the mirror now, makes me see how much I've changed over the past year. I see myself anew, a shadow of what once was. I see triumphs and accomplishments. But I also see regrets and mistakes.. Decisions, If hadn't made, I wouldn't be the person I am now.

09 was an eventful year. Filled with unexpected twists & ironies. But most especially for our age group, debuts.. They have been a tradition in the Philippines, whenever a girl turns 18, a big party is thrown (technically) for the parents to introduce their daughter into the social society. But for the youth today, a good reason to suit up, shop, and party.

This year has also been tough, trials & challenges I faced, took their toll but I made it through. Making me a stronger person, able to face the stale reality of life. I learned a great deal, not just about myself,but also with the people around me and in so, having a more existential grasp over life.

09 was not without tragedies. The typhoons that ravaged the Philippine populace.. Homes were destroyed & lives taken. So much loss, pain was asunder. But like a phoenix rise upon the ashes, the Philippines united with clasped hands and helped in the relief effort for our countrymen. Then there was the death of the beloved president Cory Aquino. An inspiring leader, who in her time fought for democracy. The country once again united in mourning and feel for the Aquino family's lost and missed yearning for.. a mother's love.

The year was all about trials & challenges, what matters is not the outcome but how we handle 'em, ourselves & the climb. Everything happens for a reason, I believe that.. For what really important is that we emerge neither win nor lose, but that the lessons we learn afterward, and the experience, help us be a much better person.

2010 holds so much promise. But no matter how much we put ourselves into writing new year resolutions, it would all mean nothing if we wouldn't act ourselves upon 'em. A new year, a new start, a new you..

reD gaTe..

2009-12-18T02:37:00.000-08:00

Since I've been a kid, I'm not only forced to take music lessons by my music teach at school but also my mom. But to my great regret now, I ditched all of them. Piano, Drums, and voice..

So you know that I'm musically inclined. Or at least by blood now, runs in the family. A brother and his wife are both music professors at the UP college of music, and my mother's really a good singer.

So now, I only linger with the thought that "I could've been" this really cool and awesome musician by now. Garsh. Well, we couldn't change the past now but only make a better future.

I've always been told that I have a good voice. period. Only potential. But With raw & untrained talent alone, is insufficient. So professional musician, crossed out.

Lately I've been into the recording business. A new dream spured. Red gate records. A dream of starting my own record label. I may not be a good musician now, but I still do love music. I can start a new path in helping others develop their talent and produce their music into the world for people to listen, enjoy, and help make a difference in their lives.

So why red gate you may ask, because ours is one. Quite meaningful for me, back then when I was this scrawny and rebellious kid from puberty's past. I've always been kept behind that gate for years and I only had my music to keep me company. Now I am grown up and able ,both physically and by right to either go in and out of that red gate.

Maybe I can takeover my brother's music studio someday, or better yet.. Start from scratch and build a better one. In our lives, there are risks we just gotta take. For in a world so full of potential and uncertainty, we all just gotta step up and take a chance.

Fireflies..

2009-12-13T21:19:00.000-08:00

As he was about to emerge from his peaceful slumber, he can hear "fireflies" by owl city playing over the radio. He started to yawn and rubb his eyes. It was barely 6o'clock am and it was still dark out. He started to sit up, then his eyes widened..

He saw a single speck glowing in mid air. whoa, he thought. "One, two three.." Three glowing dots. "wait, no." They were now hovering around his room. "Fireflies." He said in admiration.

He sat there mystified as the chorus of the song played. I like to make myself believe, that planet earth turns slowly.. He continued to watch the fireflies dance around his room. He felt quite transcendent. That morning was most magical.

~ Tried to write like the way I used to do back in the multiply-blogging days. haha. Only to make me realize how mind whacking and slothful it can get.

Wish List..

2009-12-09T21:09:00.000-08:00

16 days to go.. So you better go find the time in the world to get me a gift. haha. I usually don't do this, making lists and all. Cause I don't want to assume, just ends up as a disappointment. But this year I've got a feeling, so why not.. there's no harm in trying right.

By the way, I was scrambling on some ol' files.. found this one bad (quality) pic of us from last year's pyro olympics.

To give you an idea, here's a list of what to give me for the occasion. Consisting of what I need and what I want. cherio..

1. my beloved w850i gets fixed and functional once more..

2. any sony ericsson phone.

3. tickets to Cats the musical.. what? I'm into musicals..

4. VIP passes for the paramore-live-in-manila show.. hell yeah!

5. All the soundtrack albums of One tree Hill!

6. new headphones ^_^

7. the bro code.. the book not a pdf file.. it would be awesome to have one.. >_<

8. a really loud alarm clock. duh

9. a comically large cereal box of fruit loops. :p

10. gallons of red paint. gotta push through with my bedroom-repainting plans sometime..

You know what to get me. Now drop by at your favorite outlet mall, and grab me something.. :)

reverTigo..

2009-12-03T01:24:00.000-08:00

Oh it's actually a pretty common thing. When you're around someone from your past, you kind of REVERT back to who you were when you knew them..

Back in the day, I was the kind of guy who would sit at the back of the class and listen to my music and just sketch all day long. You can say anti-social, but pretty much just that rebellious emo and tortured artist. Kinda radical, goes about his own way.

Then maturity kicks in. I grew out of that shell, and started to be more out going, do crazy out of the norm kinda stuff and became a party person. Ironies of my life.

And so every time I'm with my childhood pals and high school batchmates, sometimes I just can't help but be who I was then. It's like an involuntary reflex, it just happens.

We're not the same person as we are in high school and sometimes, it turns out for the best.

possibility..

2009-12-02T22:10:00.000-08:00

Ever since I've been home bound & phoneless, things have been a little slow in my life.. No more morning rush, evening drinks, nor nightly getaways that much.. Relying on online networks to get in touch. Only hurting to realize, how much I've been missing out.

Sunday..

Monday..

Tuesday..

Wednesday..

Thursday..

I just wanna emphasize how slow and boring, time can get for me these days.. December again, hopefully things will start to lighten up.

S -you seek a- DAY..

2009-11-27T00:55:00.000-08:00

The Day that normally humans celebrate that I learned to not enjoy and endure like I'm suffocating, has finally come.

My birthday. ugh. I never enjoyed the sound of it.

I woke up at 5:00 in the morning, sky's still dark and the air is chilly. I love it that way. Dark, quiet, and cold. After I took a shower, I quickly dressed up and started walking to the highway. I awaited for a cab, then one by one I picked up my friends from their houses and we all went to eastwood for breakfast club.

After the enjoying the cold & breezy weather over breakfast & beer at eastwood, we took off and went to katipunan to play my favorite: rockband. For lunch we went to redbox, trinoma. Then we went bar hopping as the sun set.

As we were indulging ourselves in drunken revelry, everything went hazy.. and my eyesight dimmed.

Then I Awoke.

EXPECTATION.

I knew it. It's impossible to have this perfect.. dream at the day I dreaded. (or atleast I dreamt of how I spent my christmas season last year with my friends)

REALITY:

I spent the eve of the we-shall-not-mention day alone in my house, dark,stale,quiet, just the way I like it.. watching How I Met Your Mother. I took it as a symbolism (I wish) that I will live the next years of my life, as awesome as the characters in the show.

I was planning to spend the day hanging out my friends. But then again, it's a school day so none of them are available.

So my aunt took the initiative to take me out for dinner. Ofcourse, everything's set and all. But it's more of for my aunt, than for me. So I didn't enjoy myself really. Though I guess I have to be thankful for the fact they heard my plea of eating at an Italian resto.(my fave) So somehow my day has an upside.

Obviously, the date just went like a formality for the fam to get out and dine.
well you could guess my day mostly SUcks. you get the point.

So I just ended up running away. Ditched 'em and rode a cab to nowhere.

Well eventually, I ended up in somewhere. Treated myself with a drink, hangout and went music shopping. I enjoyed myself that way. Though I really wished I could've spent this supposedly special day with those I love.
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END of the most pathetic day I had in months.

Guess I wrote this out of spite.. I should have known better. IT'S LIFE.

Well, there's a lot to look forward to now. The next couple of days will be awesome.

Now, I'm making myself busy with organizing my music, looking for something new out there, and collaborating with some of my contacts in the local music industry.

I'm applying for an internship for this record label, so we'll see.

And as of the moment, I'm putting up a compilation album for the holiday season. (but that's our own little secret)

well.. what the world needs right now is sunshine and optimism. so that's what I'm trying out., for a change.. Cherio!

defying gravity..

2009-11-23T02:57:00.000-08:00

Secrets.. we all have 'em.

We keep such secrets because we don't don't want to hurt people, we're too embarrassed to admit it, or we just simply want to due to the fact you're not that comfortable with that particular person.

Bet you're accustomed to the cliche' saying: "what you don't know, won't hurt you." True enough, but it only makes us itch to know what the secret is more..

These past couple of weeks I've been nagging on some pals to be more open, but in a very hypocritical turn. I myself have one too many things I never tell 'em.

So until quite recently, I've been trying to go out of my usual shell of self-centeredness and try to fluster myself with optimism. And slowly, I am telling 'em one by one things that I'm not actually proud nor comfortable to talk about.

All I wanted was for us to be good enough friends so that we can talk about stuff, you know. Even if it's ugly.. especially then.

So now I'm starting to defy the norm gravity of my abyss-like personality, just take that chance, and jump off the edge.

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To take a turn, off things..

I can say New Moon is.. AWE (wait for it) SOME. awesome.

For someone who read the books and watched Twilight, the second installment of the saga is pretty much loyal to the book. With just little changes made. So bravo on that account, and brava on the direction, quite better than the first one.

So having said the stuff above, it made watching the film quite predictable (of course) leaving only the curiosity factor. Which you wonder, how the film would be like (having read the books).

I think what I did last year with Twilight is better. I watched the film before reading the book. So that made me enjoy the film more without the disappointment. Then after reading the book, I watched it again. So thus filling me on the parts where I got clueless. I enjoyed the film nonetheless.

For those who haven't read the book, (or atleast the vast majority) their initial reaction to the film: "boring" coz they don't understand what's going on.

And one major downside with it all.. is the Jacob epidemic. Really, anywhere I turn they all go like "Jacob is this, Jacob is that".. They're all like a broken record out there. Annoying ring on the ear.

So anyway, the third installment: Eclipse.. Would be something we could all look forward to.

Along Came Bella..

2009-11-15T02:50:00.000-08:00

A year ago, a friend of mine who raises and sells bunnies saw my enthusiasm for 'em so she gave me one for Christmas. A perfect white and fluffy little cutie.. and since exactly a year ago just like this year, the twilight vibe is really buzzing around. So I named her Bella. As if by fate, she fitted in the group just perfectly. She hopped around school, got along well with everyone and we all had a good time when she's around. Probably what I miss most about her: every morning when my alarm would fail to wake me up for class, (as if she actually knows my sched) every time that happens, she finds her way into my room & hops into my belly. And every sunday, when I would take her outside in the garden, let her pick out leaves she wants to eat & just hop around. Then one unfortunate day, she just passed away.. Bless her spirit.

( a moment of silence)

Speaking of Bella, as in Isabella Swan who is played by Kristen Stewart who I think is really awesome. Came out in public in a gala somewhere in europe (I think) looking like (see pic above) what critics says as a "Bizarre look" in a badly mix matched get-up. Which I think is really cool, she pulled it off.

~ catch the screening of New Moon on the 20th!

Wicked Wicca

2009-11-13T02:08:00.000-08:00

Astrology never cease to amaze me.. How accurate it can get and all in predicting, more like describing how our day goes or how we feel or even our recent debacle in life.

It just gets to me, you know. How something you expect to be cryptic turns out to be something real. Quite amusing actually. Here's something recent, and so reeal:

""You aren't in the mood to talk about your feelings to just anyone today with the Moon joining authentic Saturn in your 12th House of Secrecy. But your need for privacy doesn't include your best friend or lover, for you crave a real emotional connection that can break through your current isolation. Keep in mind that the walls between you and others are created by mutual consent, so open your heart to include those with whom you want to share your life.""

Hating all these twist in my story.

Anyways, it's friday the 13th again.. According to recent studies, more accidents or misfortunes occur in this particular day. Experts says "it is so, because people thinks so." Meaning, it's just all about mind over matter.(obviously I'm not up for long discussions at the moment)

Charms, goodluck, badluck, karma.. the works. All of us have our own superstition.

LiFe..

2009-11-12T04:04:00.000-08:00

If you haven't heard of this one before, I wanna put it this way.. I say life is like a train, it goes to places in a straight forward direction. But you only get one ticket for the ride. So the cliche' fact here is: you only get to have once chance in your life. Go figure..

Sidetrack. Speaking of trains, my favorite train station in the world ( so far) is Grand Central Station and when I get the chance to hang at new york in the really far far.. far away future, it would really be awesome to just catch the train there and I dunno go down to the last pit stop.

Now as I reach my sixteenth station(okay maybe a couple more than that), I had to switch trains. From a luxurious and futuristic ride to a rusty and foggy one. I know sometimes I get too enigmatic, so there came a time when I promised myself that I would tell my friends my struggles of late. And I keep hoping that time would come soon.

And now reality (more like life) is catching up to me. My aunt's calling on to me, maybe to get me an internship at the family business(real estate I think). Which for me sucks, coz the one thing I hate more than my laptop crashing is working with family. I really don't know how to put it in a more reasonable & convincing state, I just don't. Though I would make an exception if it would be in my uncle's law firm, which would be really awesome.

Before I go face all of it, I'm spending the last week of my sneaking-around-illegality carefree. I just wish I can go ride a train and runaway from all of it. Then again, I guess we just can't run from reality that long. Eventually everything we ran from, catches up to us.

dazeD..

2009-11-08T22:22:00.000-08:00

The official track list of the soundtrack for New Moon has been released, and it is an absolutely doozy! This is quite possibly the soundtrack of the year.

Even those who thumb their nose up at the Twilight phenomenon are going to be checking this one out. Critical darlings Grizzly Bear, Radiohead legend Thom Yorke, rockers The Killers and Muse are just some of the treats awaiting the phenomenon of a soundtrack. Here’s the full list–

1. Death Cab For Cutie – “Meet Me On The Equinox”
2. Band Of Skulls – “Friends”
3. Thom Yorke – “Hearing Damage”
4. Lykke Li – “Possibility”
5. The Killers – “A White Demon Love Song”
6. Anya Marina – “Satellite Heart”
7. Muse – “I Belong To You (New Moon)”
8. Bon Iver and St. Vincent – “Roslyn”
9. Black Rebel Motorcycle Club – “Done All Wrong”\
10. Hurricane Bells – “Monsters”
11. Sea Wolf – “The Violet Hour”
12. OK Go – “Shooting The Moon”
13. Grizzly Bear – “Slow Life”
14. Editors – “No Sound But The Wind”
15. Alexandre Desplat – “New Moon (The Meadow)”

Just like the first record, I've been really digging this one too. Listening to it non stop at the moment. To compliment the great music, been reading some great novels with it. Music and literature can be a really great combination if you know the right stuff.

A really awesome way to just get away, you know. Just blind out the white noise of life and jump to this whole new dimension.

empTy aparTmenT..

2009-11-04T11:36:00.000-08:00

I remember the time when I'm always enthusiastic about redecorating my room. When I see a cool poster or picture to hang up, or thought of a new quote to engrave, or a new idea what to draw.. I always find the right spot in my room to place it.

But that was highschool. I always knew who I am and what I want back then.

At first I was pretty much like any normal guy who wouldn't care much for his room and never spent one minute longer inside other than to dress up. But one very boring day, I sat in my room.. and I had an epiphany: "I should make this room.. my room." So I ran to the hardware store, grabbed some paint and brushes.

Since then I always make it an agenda every month to redecorate.. Changed the furniture setting, Hung up new pictures, Draw some new stuff, and even change the paint job. By doing so, helps me remind myself who I am and how I live my life.

Now, as I attempt to redecorate. I removed all the furniture, sat in my bed and stare at the artistic emo walls. Inside that empty room, I have no idea what to do next. I couldn't even call it my room anymore. It became an apartment, an empty apartment.. For the past months that's what it has been.

I have lost sight of who I am and what I wanted.

Brush in hand, I strive to catch sight of that person once again.. Because once you lost yourself, you have two choices: Find the person you used to be, or lose that person completely.

Because sometimes, you have to step outside of the person you've been. And remember the person you were meant to be. The person you wanted to be.. The person you are.

OctoberFest..

2009-10-30T10:48:00.001-07:00

We know as the world famous festival in munich, germany.. Where tens of thousand barrels of beer are served to guest who overestimate their ability to handle large amounts of alcohol. Everyone finds it as a good excuse to party and have fun. Here in the Philippines, we also celebrate such festivities. Yearly, the major brands of alcoholic beverages sponsor parties and drinking events to promote their said product and camaraderie among party people as well.

I am one of such people. This month, I find myself stretching myself too thin with all of the parties left & right that I'm invited to. What I did, I prioritized. (Which I had a very hard time to accomplish) I only went to the benefit parties. (not the usual norm party, but the ones whose beneficiaries are the victims of typhoons) So all of that kinda worked out well. We partied, enjoyed ourselves and at the same time helping (in our own way) the typhoon victims.

No offense to my party clique, I enjoy their company but I miss going out with my childhood friends. As I spend more time at home, I anticipate their presence and hopes we could plan a get together soon. Unfortunately not that soon, some are MIA (missing in action) and others are off with their families in their respected provinces. Now phoneless, I'm kinda socially-handicapped. I only have my online social networks and ym to rely to when receiving invites and news of my friends.

To cap off the month, we went to a Halloween Ball. It was awesome. We crashed with top to torn attire and the girls with slutty outfits.. (playboy bunnies, etc.) The storm didn't stop us, it actually helped us sober up after the party. Chelsy had the idea when she got wet outside. She started pulling us in the rain. (pardon me, I don't remember much of the details) Somehow we all ended up dancing in the rain. haha. That night was.. Legendary. So to speak.

Only wish that when I'm with my childhood friends, we could be as spontaneous.. Lot to look forward to this November. One of which is what-I-will-not-mention on the 17th, go figure haha.

ChaRmed..

2009-10-25T12:14:00.000-07:00

COUNTDOWN TO THE nEW mOON
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@ Ascend Super Club, Bonifacio High street..
Oct. 30,2009.

Halloween.. the evening of October 31st, the eve of All Saints' Day; All Hallows Eve: observed especially by children in costumes who solicit treats, often by threatening minor pranks. But in modern times, one doesn't have to be a kid to wear a scary mask or a fluffy (maybe slutty) costume on to party. Also a day more commonly known for witches, vampires, mean looking pumpkins, and a variety of monstrous creatures.

Speaking of witches. for three years going.. It has been my tradition to watch the series: Charmed, every Halloween. It's a tv show way way back. About 3 sisters who, apparently are witches. Started back in the 90's which ended with 8 seasons. Story goes like how the sisters shuffle their life of magic and battle against demons with maintaining their normal lives. Pretty awesome really. That goes for Alyssa Milano too, who plays the youngest sister: Phoebe.

This Halloween, I was counting on a beach party. But no thanks to my a-wol party pals who mostly went abroad for spring break and some just busy of sorts.. Had to improvise. Guess (as seen above) will do. Really looking forward to having an awesome time before classes resume.

Improvise..

2009-10-23T14:12:00.000-07:00

When faced with an unexpected debacle.. A pop quiz, last minute speech or presentation.. Meeting a rival, enemy or having an awkward moment with a person on the road. Unlike some people who walk away nor the people who would spend a whole lot of time thinking what to do.. I usually improvise. A spur of the moment act without previous preparation or acting upon extemporaneously.

But when you say improvise, it’s been more of a work ethic for me than an only on the spot thing. Give high school for example, had smooth sailing. Never really remember a time when I studied or prepared for an exam, presentation & project days before the due date. Challenging but fun. I had a different sense of high every time I would do projects just hours before passing it, then ending up with a higher grade than my classmates who took their time. It was quite fulfilling.

That improvise attitude made me a laid-back, happy go lucky, sort-of rebel, kind of person growing up. The peak of my rebelliousness was junior & senior year, quite memorable. I would usually talk back & defy my teachers, especially in math. I would talk negatively about his activities, openly talk back in front of the class, & every time he would make me miss an exam: I would just draw, talk with my seatmates & make a ruckus while everyone is taking the exam. Bottom line: after all of that, got away with it. With the teach giving me quite a grade and passing the subject.

Last year of high school was fun. Senior year, I had loads of tardy days. I would usually make quite an entrance during the middle of class, late. When late during morning assembly, the prefect would usually make us run or doing some stuff out on the public: like sprints, jumping rope, etc. What a fun-filled experience to end high school. Lawless like an outlaw.

Usually I got away with all of it with the teachers & prefects because I cultivated my ability to be a smooth talker (As my English teach said, I am a good bluffer) I am able to IMPROVISE a good excuse, explaining myself quite spectacularly, bluffing myself out of the situation.

Years later, improvising is still a thing. Got me out of some tangled situations. When meeting people on the road, dating..(rejection is not quite accepted by most of ‘em) so bluffed myself out before things got icky.

Stuck? So Improvise.

Give Love a Try..

2009-10-21T07:15:00.000-07:00

“Three words, eight letters, say it and I am yours.” Everyone has their own definition, in every sense of the word. For me: “Let’s just forget thinking and follow our hearts. “

The first time I indulged myself in agreeing to a date with a girl crushing on me was in 5^th grade. I remember the innocence and reluctance in the air. Lunch dates, just kids hanging out. The only girl I was really into back then was this cute girl who has an amazing voice & a great singer. Because I enjoyed our friendship so much that I didn’t want to mess it up, I didn’t mention anything about how I feel. Unfortunately for high school I had to transfer, so we part ways.

In high school, nobody really came closer to my heart than her. But there were a few who came knocking. One though was almost there, she was also a singer. (What’s up with me & musicians?) Clip notes version: We connected through music. We played & sung a few duets. Maybe was a little into each other. But guy was a clueless jerk, so girl moved on. In the end, they just became friends with a bit of awkwardness. Then the rest of high school was just a couple of dates with nobody special.

Years after grade school, I accidentally ran into my childhood sweetheart in an ice cream shop my friends & I hangout. We we’re both like “Whoa. Hey.” Then a warm embrace. It’s like as if we never parted. Emotions I thought long forgotten, returned that very moment.

Ever since I saw her then, I couldn’t get this song out of my head:

“You, like driving on a Sunday..

You, like taking off on Monday..

You..

You’re like a dream, dream come true..

I.. just a face you never notice.

And I.. just trying to be honest with myself.

With you..

With the world.

You might think that I am a fool for falling over you.

So tell me what can I do to prove to you that it’s not so hard to do.

Give love a try, one more time..

Cause you know that I’m on your side.

Give love a try, one more time..”

Then I just got all mopey when I saw her shout out, pics & status, that she already got a boyfriend.. I should have known. Someone as special as her, of course. Now I know she had moved on, guess about time I should too. But she'll always have a special place here in my heart.

Now back to regular dating, nothing special.. Hoping to meet a great person waiting out there, taking a break from friends with benefit..

Vocal Adrenaline..

2009-10-11T11:33:00.000-07:00

Adrenaline rush. It’s very common you could Google it. Figuratively, the term adrenaline is used in speaking of a high state of excitement: “When the race began, the adrenaline really started pumping.” Physically & psychologically... but vocally?

There have been countless of times when out of nowhere I just sung out loud. Weirdest one yet: One really good morning, Sun is shining bright & birds a chirping... I awoke from a peaceful slumber, and then suddenly I just sung “It’s my life... It’s now or never. I ain’t gonna live forever. I just wanna live while I’m alive. ” as I sit up the bed. Then when I sobered up, “whoa. What was that?”

One time when a friend got busted and he would just continuously apologize with his ex and fail in his attempts to make up. I was all like “You look so dumb right now... And the award for the best liar goes to you.” and we all went laughing that one out.

I was asking out a pretty cool though goodie goodie girl for an afternoon drink. In the process of persuading her: “Just one night couldn’t be so wrong... You make me want to lose control.” Then when she said yes, I went back to my friends tuning gallantly “I make ‘em good girls go bad..” That day was LEGEN... (Wait for it) DARY!

The night we we’re planning for a surprise debut, we were asked to do a song number. As I walk the dark road home, it hit me. Alone in that long quiet road, I started singing: “Say it again for me.. coz I love the way it feels when you are telling me that I’m the only one who blows your mind. Say it again..” Unfortunately they don’t share my sympathy for the song so they went with another.

When I usually get psyched I would go invite my friends to go play Rockband and we’ll all have an awesome time. Playing it, you don’t just need to hit/press the right keys but you also have a good ear for the music. I get a really peculiar sense of high when I do the vocals. It’s like we’re drowning in our awesomeness.. haha, so to speak.

So if adrenaline for others is getting pumped up physically, for nerds getting all worked out for an exam, and for Bella hallucinating about Edward.. Guess mine’s busting into song. Music is something that can unite people of different cliques & genres. A fellow enthusiast once said: “I love singing so much; I don’t see why I have to stop just because I’m bad at it.” I’m proud of her, that’s a really great attitude. “Share your passion with the world.”

“But maybe not with the WHOLE world”, she said. xp

What's in the name..

2009-10-05T11:34:00.000-07:00

Jonas.. It has been my name for as long as I can remember. It's what my parents gave me.. (more like labelled) for the past 16-something years. It has brought me perks and disadvantages.

Every time I meet some people on the road, in a party, or in a club.. “Hi. I am Jonas.” They would usually go like: “Wow. Really? Jonas Brother!” It attracts unwanted attention, and sometimes it gets troublesome. At first I was not cool with it, but as time pass by I got used to it. I can count the people in my hand that didn’t saw me that way in their 1^st impression. It can be an icebreaker or cool points when introducing myself.

I got really annoyed quite recently with the fact that I share my name with other people. My friends would go tell me: “Wow. I met someone in my school, his name is Jonas too,” I accounted similar encounters like 2-3 times. I would just joke: “This town has one too many Jonases..”. And freshmen year, I got to know a batch mate who’s a Jonas too. So the whole school had labelled us as the Jonas Brothers. Sometimes people see me as the much cooler one and top out better than the other because he’s gullible and geekier. And I would get to tease him for it. Besides Jonas is my one and only name while he got Jonas as a second name.

Years ago my Mother started one of the very first Drugstores in Taytay, Rizal.. So it got well-known and the people who ran it (with yours truly). Fun fact is, until today when I walk around town may it be day or night people still recognize me. “Hi. You’re Jonas right? The kid from Guadalupe Pharmacy? Wow.. You’re all grown up.”

One major disadvantage is with the face that goes with it. A lot of people say that my face is quite recognizable. Though I don’t know if it’s a good thing or not but mostly I take it as a compliment. Thus result; I am walking in a cool afternoon in the city. Some people would go up to me and say: “Oh. Hi Jonas. Fancy seeing you here.” I would panic for a sec, I don’t remember the person’s name. So I usually go with acknowledging him or her with a nod and a simple “Hey.” Then go about my business. Perk, it’s more of a 5-minute fame and get to know a lot of real people. Disadvantage, when I screw up they would tend to remember and spread it like wild fire. The last time a gossip bomb dropped, it was not a pretty sight.

The name bears the weight of the lyrics: “Live to party blah blah blah”. Usually I am that guy, but sometimes I am not. It’s hard to live up to society’s expectations. Acting up to what people think who you are. Sometimes you would just get caught up in it that you yourself would wonder: “Who am I gonna be?” I love the advantages of my best of both world thing going on, but sometimes it’s exhausting and hardest is the currency: As I gain new friendships, I also lose some old ones.

“Embrace your awesomeness.” My very compelling optimist of a friend used to say to me. We we’re on an open mic night, so we went for it. We just sung and for me were quite trembling to be there on stage in front of people. But afterwards, wow.. The audience’s applause was satisfying and inspiring. Just want to make me remember my childhood dream. (Be in a cool band and change the world thingy). All I know is: Music is in my soul, I can hear it everyday, every night.. It’s the one thing n my mind. I just want to play my music.

~ Yeap. From the looks of this (whatever you will call this thing I’ve been typing down) my head is a mess and my thoughts are disarranged. Right now been figuring out things, figuring out life. And trying to get there you know. (where you may ask) I’ll tell you when I get there..

Lost and Found..

2009-10-01T08:34:00.000-07:00

When I was 13 - the new guy in secondary school - I understood that I would have to plan for friendship. I was not cool by by any stretch of the word. I worked the periphery, the empty space between the cliques. So I studied students at their lockers, tried on attitudes, sat in the front, back, middle of the bus. And I hoped that someone else was looking, too, and would be inspired by something about me..

When you take a stand on friendship, when, in rage, you make it clear - This friendship is over, get out - you are defining the rest of your life. I didn't realize then that you can't make old friends, that you can only lose them. And in losing them, you lose part of yourself.

My uncle who is into gardening, saws off branches to save his trees. "Here's my secret." he'll say. "It's all about caring. About shaving off the bad parts so that you can save the whole. You love something enough, you don't let it die."

Why is it that we need friendship, once we're free of schoolyard bullies, school cafeterias, adolescent identity crises? Once we're out on our own, why do we still yearn? I believe friends enclose us, like a pair of parentheses. Each one knows us in a different way. I am who I am because my friendships keep on growing. But there are limits on the number of friends a soul might have, and there are limits, especially, on best friendships.

Where are you Now..

2009-09-29T20:31:00.000-07:00

To my favorite teacher Who told me never give up
To my 5th grade crush Who I thought I really loved
To the guys I missed And the girls we kissed
Where are you now?

To my ex-best friends Don´t know how we grew apart
To my favorite band And sing-alongs in my car
To the face I see In my memories
Where are you now?

To my first girlfriend I thought for sure was the one
To my last girlfriend Sorry that I screwed it up
To the ones I loved But didn't show it enough
Where are you now?

Where are you now?
Cause I'm thinking of you
You showed me how, how to live like I do
If it wasnt for you
I would never be who I am.

And I'll never see those days again
And things will never be that way again
But thats just how it goes,
People change, But I know
I wont forget you
To the ones who cared And who were there from the start
To the love that left and took a piece of my heart
To the few who´d swear I´d never go anywhere

Where are you now?
If it wasn´t for you
I would never be who I am
If it wasn´t for you
I´d be nothing
Where are you now?

The Write Stuff..

2009-09-29T12:14:00.000-07:00

Smoking and drinking are tough habits to pick up but once they are formed, they are even tougher to break(to those too weak to seek it). The same is true of great literature, which is, let's face it, Jim Beam for the brain.

If you read a lot of books, you're considered well-read. But if you watch a lot of TV, you're not considered well-viewed.

Fiction writing is great. You can make up almost anything.

I developed a liking to fantasy fiction maybe because, like in movies they take you to a whole new world.. but on a larger scale, because it's your imagination at work here. and due to the fact we had loads of 'em at home. >_<

Right now, I'm into reading Reader's Digest.. I got interested with true to life stories.. Some of 'em just got me inspired, some just really worth reading, and it also has fun facts about the comic reality of life and endeavors of real people.

Entertaining and enriching. Reading has a lot of perks when you're into it.
I remember back in high school.. I hate it when I am forced to read, just because we're required to make book reports. Now, I read because I want to. The irony of it all..

So before you hit start, hit the books first!

Move a Little..

2009-09-29T00:11:00.002-07:00

We know that walking can help prevent weight gain, but now researchers at Duke University have shown that it can also help you lose weight without changing the way you eat.

They had 120 overweight adults exercise on a treadmill, elliptical machine or stationary bike. After eight months, those who worked out three hours per week ( the equivalent of walking 30 minutes a day, six days a week) and those who did two hours ( jogging 20 minutes, six days a week) burned the same number of kilojoules and lost about the same amount of weight, on average: 1.36 kilos and 1.13 kilos, respectively ( the runners likely gained more muscle).

A third group, also exercised three hours a week, but at a higher intensity (the equivalent of jogging 30 minutes, six days a week), and lost 3.62 kilos. A fourth group of non exercisers gained 1.13 kilos.

"Most adults can easily prevent weight gain by walking."

The advantage of higher-intensity exercise is to get the same amount done more quickly or to spend the same amount of time and burn more kilojoules.

So if you're like me, fit conscious but loves to go food trippin.. nor have time to go by the gym.
start by just walking around.. walk to your car, walk your dog around the park,, or instead of taking a trike, walk home..

Move, shake and start walking those feet.

New Moon - Meet me on the Equinox..

2009-09-23T23:26:00.000-07:00

An equinox occurs twice a year, when the tilt of the Earth's axis is inclined neither away from nor towards the Sun, the Sun being vertically above a point on the Equator.The name "equinox" is derived from the Latin aequus (equal) and nox (night), because around the equinox, the night and day are approximately equally long. When north and south of the equator experience nights of equal length.
And that's why it's ON THE EQUINOX and not AT THE EQUINOX ..

I feel Bella's pain... Her loss.. That feeling of missing something dear, knowing that you might not get it back again., That after feeling complete happiness, everything just comes to an abrupt end.

Time ouT..

2009-09-21T09:32:00.000-07:00

They all feared (which they called as) the inevitable. That the fellowship wont survive due to the continuous space that seems to grow and makes 'em drift apart.

So they took drastic measures. They talked amongst themselves to pinpoint the issues and how can they resolve them and hope that the fellowship would evolve and survive.

Then started project: No boundaries..

It started with the LoneBard, Princess, Duke and the Maiden.. Then they tried to preach their cause to the others distant still. It was not an easy task. They we're all a work in progress.

Days passed and they were starting to be more open and (well) a bit more expressive to each other.
Every time there were talks, there is still that dead air. a momentary silence.
Certain stuff still tabooed.
Boundaries are not easily easily torn down. Bridges take time to be built.

They were all in a fog of uncertainty.

There were casualties and extensions to the fellowship.
Different personalities collide, hidden alliances formed.

They we're never as one.

They we're all trying, maybe a bit too much.

Most were intellectually linguistic who reads each line and try to understand each others words.
While some are just expressive, who has a way with words but easily misunderstood.

Then they came to a point where they all need a time of solitude.. a sabbatical.
Time to think off and figure out things.

No matter how much they argue about it, the fellowship's breaking has long been predicted and inevitable. It started with the p.king & the d.Lady..

now it's starting to catch up with them.

Only thing now is to retreat, live and fight another day.
Should they stay and fight, there would be no hope of unity and all would be lost.
Only by surrendering, taking different paths of their own should they prevent further casualties to the fellowship and still have hope of unity in the future.

ALL IN TIME.

astrologizED..

2009-09-21T08:22:00.000-07:00

Scorpio -
You have a guard around your heart
that was erected long ago, and it's
holding up pretty well. However, a
certain charming someone will find
an opening and slide right in.

I was always intrigued by astrology. Every time I read mine on the newspaper or over the net, the prediction in a peculiar way comes true by the end of the day. So ever since, whenever I come across the horoscope part of magazines/papers I can't help but look at mine.

I read the prediction above a few days back. I can safely say, that the first part is true. Ever since high school, I never dared to make my heart vulnerable to anybody. That's why up til today I don't do major commitments.. I've dated a couple of times, that seasonal summer flings, and friends with benefits. But no official girlfriend commitment. That's why I'm so intrigued, would I actually let someone in? So right now I'm watching out on all charming girls I know.. >_< and we'll see.

_ _ _ _ _

So we we're at a friend's place, and there was this horoscope mag..
we all checked out what it said about us.
when I read mine aloud, It was darn accurate and (well) almost a perfect
biography of my personality. So they said like wow, It just stated your life.
blah blah.
They said that I might be a stereotype (one who follows a certain way or
something like that so they said) which I am not.
Truth be told, I was a bit offended.
So I just said (jokingly) my type is just so expected in the world..
blah blah.

I dunno what celestial meaning behind the stars that astrology/ numerology predicts pretty well our personalities but whatever it is, I guess we shouldn't rely too much on it.

Let's live our lives like the way we want it to be and not let some piece of paper dictate it for us.

MUSIC STUDIO..

2009-09-17T06:36:00.000-07:00

I am sure many of you are familiar with the hip musicians today like: Lady Gaga, Taylor Swift, BoysLikeGirls, Jonas Brothers, and many more. But ofcourse, as everyone should know, before they got all of their great songs out in the market, they have recorded them first in a music studio. Now what exactly is a music studio? What are it's functions? How can we manage a music studio? Today we're gonna talk about that and a brief history of how a music studio came to be. Who knows, maybe we can start recording ourselves and be stars in our own right.

Today, we can define a music studio simply as a place where musicians can play, rehearse and most importantly, to record their songs. To better understand, Recording is a process of registering waveform by mechanical, photographic, electrical or magnetic means for subsequent reproduction on radio, television, disc, film, or tape.

The first sound recording was made by Thomas Alva Edison, the inventor of the electric light bulb. In 1877 his first machine had a cylinder turned by a handcrank, a horn that looked like a cheerleader's megaphone. The idea was good, but the sound was very bad. Edison's simple machine had many faults.

The recording of sound, has been done all through 20^th century. But only in the last few years has nearly perfect recording been possible. The “talking machines” of the 1900's were so crude that the “talk” could hardly be understood. In the early 1920's the wind-up phonographs were only slightly better. But the modern record players are so well made that they can produce the original sound almost perfectly. So basically, the first music studio is the workplaces of every inventor after Edison who is working on the improvement of sound recording.

A music studio must have a technical room where all the recording equipment is found, where a technician operates, and where a music producer oversee the ongoing recording. A music studio obviously has to have a recording booth, a room where a musician plays and records. Aside from musical instruments, mic stands, the room is also sound-proofed for better sound input in recording. To do so, the walls are plated with rubber or with soft cushions. Like what we see in movie houses and theaters.

Services rendered in a music studio, first is rental of equipment ofcourse only to be used within the premises like guitars electrical or otherwise, drums, keyboards, etc. for band rehearsals are charged by the hour. Second is recording, the rate depends entirely on what the customer and owner agrees upon. Some charge them per song, how long the duration will take. Lastly is music lessons. If the owner is musically inclined, he or she could teach kids lessons in voice, guitar, drums, or in which the owner has prior knowledge of. Lessons could be rated by the hour or session.

Starting your own music studio would be a bit pricey, because of the equipment and all. So usually owners are mostly musicians who had collected/bought these equipment for personal use over the years and thought to share 'em with willing souls who wants to learn their craft.. The music studio business can be manned not just by musicians or people with music-inclined proffesions but also simple music enthusiasts.

So basically that's it. Though I'm no expert in the subject matter, I hope I was able share some things there is to know about a music studio. So Musicians out there, never fret to experiment just write stuff and let the world enjoy your music.

Hearts OUT to TAYLOR..

2009-09-13T22:25:00.000-07:00

you know that saying, it takes a village to raise a child?

Apparently, Kanye's village has failed him. He obviously doesn't have a real friend in the world. There does not appear to be anyone who can get through to him, to make him understand that he needs to curb his obnoxious behavior.

I thought it was a joke when Kanye showed up on the MTV Video Music Awards stage next to Taylor Swift, right in the middle of her acceptance speech for Best Female Video for "You Belong With Me." It was the first Moon Man for the 19-year-old country starlet, who has become an equally huge star in the pop world.

"I always dreamed about what it would be like to win one of these one day," Taylor said with surprise. "I never thought it would happen."

As Taylor continued, Kanye interrupted, saying he thought Beyonce's "Single Ladies" video was wrongly overlooked. "Hey Taylor, I'm really happy for you, but Beyonce had one of the best videos of all time."

Taylor looked humiliated. I felt humiliated for her. The audience booed him, and gave her a standing ovation.

I didn't expect Taylor to win that award, and I'm not upset about Kanye's opinion. However, bum-rushing the stage wasn't the appropriate time and place to express his disagreement.

Not only was Kanye's approach disrespectful, it was especially disrespectful because it was directed towards a woman--a teenage girl, actually. Taylor won't turn 20 until December. I can only imagine how her father feels. I'm sure he would like to have a talk to Kanye. I'm not related to her, and I'd like to have a talk with him.

If Kanye wants people to win the awards he thinks they deserve, he should create his own event. He should name it after his website, KanyeUniversity.com, and webcast it.

Kanye is a guest at the MTV Video Music Awards. He does not determine the winners. The winners are determined by popular vote. Furthermore, aside from the fact that Taylor Swift is a top-selling artist, who has revolutionized teen country pop, she did not have any competition in this category as her competitors Beyonce, Lady GaGa, Pink, and Kelly Clarkson split the pop vote. Taylor had to get 100 percent of the country vote, plus some of the pop vote as well.

It's simple math that even a "College Dropout" should be able to figure out.

Ironically, a MTV writer joked that Kanye's rant was an indication that he might be inebriated. "Kanye West ruins Taylor Swift's big moment," the MTV.com editor wrote. "Further

proof that he's on the Hennessy. In my humble opinion, that is."

MTV also reported that Perez Hilton and Hayley Williams started a #TeamTaylor trend on Twitter.

Pink tweeted about her annoyance with Kanye. "Kanye West is the biggest piece of sh-t on earth. Quote me," she wrote. "My heart goes out to Taylor Swift. She is a sweet and talented girl, and deserved her moment. She should know we all love her."

Kanye has previously made award show rants about Gretchen Wilson, Justice and Simian, as well as Britney Spears and Justin Timberlake, but this was the worst.

I give credit to Taylor. She handled it gracefully. The audience countered him by giving her a standing ovation, and booed Kanye throughout the night whenever his name was mentioned.

Taylor performed "You Belong With Me" live just minutes later. I watched, wondering if she would feel flustered, and if it would show in her performance. But it didn't.

I think she channeled that negative energy into a positive. Good for her.

Fortunately, Taylor got another chance to complete her acceptance speech. When Beyonce accepted the Best Video Award for "Single Ladies," she invited Taylor back on stage.

"Wow, this is amazing," Beyonce said when receiving her award. "I remember being 17-years-old and up for my first MTV award with Destiny's Child. It was one of the most exciting moments in my life. So, I'd like for Taylor to come out and have her moment."

Taylor then joined Beyonce on stage and recited her acceptance speech, only making a subtle reference to the incident. Before rattling off her special thanks, she said, "Maybe we can try this again."

After the awards, Kanye posted an apology to Taylor on his website, KanyeUniversity.com. "I'M SOOOOO SORRY TO TAYLOR SWIFT AND HER FANS AND HER MOM," Kanye wrote on his site, AP reported. "I SPOKE TO HER MOTHER RIGHT AFTER AND SHE SAID THE SAME THING MY MOTHER WOULD'VE SAID. SHE IS VERY TALENTED!"

Still, MTV should have thrown Kanye out of the event. Had any other heckler had the audacity to interrupt the broadcast, they would have been thrown out and probably charged. He should not be treated any differently.

This dude needs help.

shOT up..

2009-09-11T03:39:00.000-07:00

UNLIKE FINE WINE,

bottled-up emotions

do not taste better

with time..

Fact:
Strawberries bring out the flavor of champagne..

that's one reason I love 'em!

Fortune Telling..

2009-09-09T23:48:00.000-07:00

Exciting yet scary.
Should we mess with fate?
What if it all went into our heads..

That every time we are faced with that situation,
we all get nervous and screw up..

That we were meant to like it, but we don't like it YET.

What if knowing, ruins everything.

Won't we want it all just to come in naturally,
and actually live life..

Ain't no Writer..

2009-09-09T23:36:00.000-07:00

The key to witting is to write, not to think..

When you write your first draft,
write with your heart..

When rewriting, then we use our head.

F R I E N D S

2009-09-09T05:21:00.000-07:00

For as long as I can remember, the fellowship shared everything.

Stories..

Secrets..

Laughter..

Broken hearts.

So when we found friendship in each other, that by some miracle, fit us but not so perfectly.. We took it on faith they'd come into each other's lives for a reason.

That summer and the two that followed.. The friendship had the magic of keeping us together. No matter where they found us. They saw us through times of love.. Times of loss.. and times of change. And those moments where your life just lift up.. and take off.

That fall when we left for college, I watched each of my friends settle into a new life.

ISA and CHRIS became Blue Eagles @ ADMU. BEL was @ distant UPLB, but thankfully for sophomore year she was able to transfer campuses and now with VEN @ UP diliman.. While JO is being modern @ iAcademy, JUS took culinary @ CCA but stopped for a sem and joined JAM @ DLSB the next. We were proud of EL for being a Dean's Lister @ UST. and IAN, enjoying theater @ DBTC.

They made it look so easy, fitting right in and making new friends.. While I was at UPjr waiting to feel something real or familiar. I was lost without them, especially when it felt like my family was moving on too.

I believe the fellowship can survive anything. But maybe our friendship had done just about all our friendship could do.. and the rest we had to learn on our own.

How to become ourselves, without losing each other. *

Sometimes I think that the friendship got lost on purpose.. That this was their final gift to us..

Bringing us back together. Back to a place of forgiveness and love.. and an understanding that we shared was all the magic we could ever need.

And as we spent those last few moments of togetherness.. Looking out at the blending of mirth and new experiences.. I realized it was a sight I knew very well: The softly faded essential face.. of a well - treasured fellowship of FRIENDS.

The friendship had brought us together again.

The rest.. was in our hands.

Drunkard..

2009-03-25T08:53:00.000-07:00

(I know, I am not good at this so I just tried to type in some scribbled thoughts..)

Why do we drink? What’s the point? What would we get by doing so?

A friend once asked me.

I said, the most cliché answer: fun. When we drink, we get oozy, tipsy and we lose ourselves in the booze. We get to, do & say stuff that we don’t normally do. We turn to a totally different person. Free and expressive, those walls that limit us are torn down.

So I never deny the fact that I do drink, nor brag about it.

In time I have strengthen my tolerance for it. I have been the most hardest to pin down in a party. People got interested in me, wonders, why I don’t get drunk. I just laughed, and said: “I dun no.”

I grew an interest in mixing and experimenting on any sort of drinks. On the rocks or just cocktails.

In a weird way, I feel like I have this skill to filter the alcohol in my body and decide weather or not I would get drunk. Like in many occasions, I would drink pitchers and still nothing. And sometimes I drink shots and I lose it. If I want to, I will. If I don’t want to or feeling like so, I won’t.

Some say, that I just know my limits and capacity.

I was labeled as the party guy. Some thought of me as trashy.

A friend pertained to me as a drunkard.

Somehow I just didn’t care what other people think.

I just love parties, clubbing, bar hopping.. It’s been a way of my life.

Thus born my interest in being a bartender and maybe run my very own club someday even..

My philosophy:
Drown in the music, and block out the white noise in life.

Just..

Walk by any club tonight.

Just look at the kids, they’re all looking for something to believe in.

And I think that music can be the thing that changes their world.

Look up to people that would pick up basic instruments and make sense out of life.

I know what most would think:
They’re not out to get their world saved.

They had a bad day.

They want to get drunk and get laid.

Oh well.. everyone has their own opinions.

I say, screw it. Your life, make a stand.

Well, at least this party guy does.

A drunkard, party hard but party responsibly.

New Kid On The Block..

2009-03-10T22:11:00.000-07:00

so I just wanted to say welcome, to myself here in the blogging world.. at last after quite sometime of thinking of doing so, I finally have my own blogspot.. >_<

cherio!

btw, Thanks to RIA

(http://www.screw-me-senseless.blogspot.com/)

who helped me in making this possible.. haha.