Off the grid.. Hiking-Camping-Island hopping. 05/17/14 #Zambales

It's sorta last minute, but I'm glad I decided to join.. It's been 4 years since my HS friends and I went out on a legit out-of-town trip. I decided to resign from work and what best way to start my new life (FUNemployment) than an off the grid trip with friends. Anawangin Cove had no electricity and cell reception what so ever, making it a perfect getaway.

It was the hardest yet fulfilling adventure I ever went on, its the first time I trekked a mountain and it was breathtaking, literally. Every step I made felt like my last, at first I was excited ofcourse but then my current unhealthy lifestyle made me realize I'm not quite "fit" and physically healthy than I thought I was. It made me realize that we need to take care of our body more than sustenance.

Being with people I've known my whole life made me look back and appreciate that despite time and how far we've grown from the people we once was in highschool, our friendship remained constant.. and that will always be something we can cherish for life. 

#Summer #Highschool #Reality #YOLO

Revert.

Im back.. Geez its been only what my 2nd post for this year and the last is what, 8months ago? so where to begin.. I pretty much skipped out on a lot of stuff, my on the job training experience at davao pearl farm, my one night valentine, struggling through summer with finances that got sidetracked to a romance and to now.. shuffling school work, my social life, a best friend debacle with every damn drama that hits this emo kid.

I guess it will be a btch to re account all the stuff that Ive been through so far this year and since I rarely get to write anymore, Ive decided to continue this blog more as a diary-ish, spatting out my random thoughts and emotionality kindof blog. As aforementioned, I want to come back. you know, I wanna revert back to my old expressive linguist/artist kid that I used to be.. share my life and maybe hear more about kids that going through the same thing.

So I guess, I'll be around more often. 

btw, Im currently reviewing for my final thesis defence which is 5 hours from now. wish me luck. :)

Surreal New Year..

Wow.. A year. 2011 has been one of the most if not eventful, the most emotional one. This year I've discovered sides of me I never knew existed. That I made myself vulnerable, codependent, yet somehow mocked and isolated because of it. This year, I lost my way with words.. That ability to express myself through writing, even lost my journal. This year, I took advantage of (to my own surprise) my good looks and charm, so to speak.. to the point I cant even befriend a decent girl without the pretense that Im just a player, thanks to circulating rumors throughout campus. This year, I thought I had a bestfriend.. you know, that person Im open to and fully trusted. Only to realize it was just by some illusion from an awesome summer. I've been a martyr, a loner, suicidal, streetkid, joker, playboy, and what totals to a very long year of self discovery and immersion. I learned how to love and from a brief period, be loved.

This new year brings another chance to prove myself, be who I wanna be and make a change if not to my own but to another kid's life somehow. Lead by experience and no longer be a lost puppy that follows others around without cause. Continue to trust that pal I still value without losing myself. Oh and yeah, for the 2nd time.. I spent the newyear on our rooftop.. it was magical, surrounded by fireworks all over town. alone on that roof caring about nothing else and and feels like Im on the music vid of k.perry's firework.. yeah It sounds stupid, me singing out loud under fireworks but you gotta admit its kinda cool.

FlairBlast..

Booze, Exams & Best friends.. A lot has happened over the past few months.. Feels like a lifetime ago, the last time I posted here. What is there to tell, the 1st semester was different. There is change.. I finally feel purpose.. A decent peer group, a worthy profession.. This semester, I found myself a part of the campus flair guild.. An org dedicated in flair tending and mixology.

Planking, Flairing, Mischief.. pretty much what a typical college student would be sharing with his bestpal.. One of the highlights of this semester would be my 1st ever flair competition. Normally the guild requires new members to train for months before joining competitions but in my case it was different. Despite having the least experience, as punishment for planking around campus I was required to join.. I made a mess of course, but it was a very invigorating and educational experience.

Open Parties.. A weekly ritual for the kids around these parts.. You'll be surprised how young the party animals are today.. We, my pals & I ofcourse are one of 'em. At first, it started out all fun you know.. then it came to us, why not "party... and earn". Thus a new gig came to mind: Bartenders for open parties..\m/

checkout:Flair.ph on Facebook.

Hdd Mv Launch..

Hey Daydreamer Music Video Launch! april27 At Capone's Makati... When we heard about the event, my Bro and I immediately cleared out our schedules and went.

The music video was directed by Bianca King and Enzo Valdez. Bianca also reavealed that other friends helped with make-up done by Bubbles Paraiso, styling from Rhian Ramos. Maggie Wilson-Consunji also provided the location. Jasmine Curtis-Smith is the lead girl in the video.

With a successful first single and unwavering support from fans & friends... somedaydream will surely release an album soon. A new trend for the local music scene, electro pop.. Let's support our very own! For more updates check out his page on Facebook and follow him on twitter @sdrez.

hey day dreamer..

been a while since I got into OPM.. last night I went with a pal to eastwood to check this band he's raving about...

Someday dream.. a proudly pinoy electro pop, one-man band. Namely Rez Toledo, this guy from ateneo. Managed by Champ, from HALE. I guess if you regularly tune to local radio stations like magic88.9 or rx93.1, you already heard someday dream's first single "hey daydreamer". Apparently champ heard someday dream play and decided to mentor the young guy. Pretty cool actually, he formed Mecca, a music company that will market, produce and foster young musicians.

The pic above is taken at eastwood. (c/o abby lavienne) we got champ, patrick (my pal), rez (someday dream), and yours truly.

Let's all support local artists.. the awesome music industry.. Someday dream, something to watch out for in the future.

Post Valentine Disorder..

2 years ago I made this mix cd for my friends as a xmas gift.. entitled “Friends, Lovers, or Nothing”. I was then in a very emotional state, I lost two women I cared about. One I loved from afar, she never turned back.. and the other loved me, but I hurt her by failing to give back. Then here I am, years later.. finding myself in the same emotional state. Maybe not in the same situation, but the same ordeal of the heart.

This is what I love about music. It is transcendent. It is timeless. It is.. truth.

This month.. I found love, more like it found me. It is not planned and just sorta happened. First couple of weeks was awesome, we had fun, made new friends, but in the long run I started to question myself. We share interests true, but we don’t connect, personally in so many levels.. no spark. Thus my decision to just remain friends.. I wont hurt her anymore by leading her on. Save the friendship, save our group, to save the good times we spend together.

If there’s anything I learned this month, is that love is not just about the fun, the adventure, the drama or the parties you share together, but when you both share this very unique and deep connection that is beyond words. You feel it.. with your heart.

day of the Yawn..

1- vb
1. to open the mouth wide and take in air deeply, often as in involuntary reaction to tiredness, sleepiness, or boredom

source: dictionary.com

Saturday.
I think I never yawned so many times before that I literally had to struggle to keep myself awake. I mean, I find myself at smx convention center for chefs-on-parade.. interested on watching this kitchen demo with this Belgian chef and I just cant stop myself from dozing off. It's embarrassing really with the room filled with fellow students and young professionals. Then there's that ambush double date at mall of asia, that some friends orchestrated just so we (me and this girl friend of mine) have some supposed time together.. they got us tickets for My Valentine Girls. The entire what.. 2 hour duration of the film, I like yawned for every 5 minutes.. not exactly the romantic mood they were trying to give us. To understand the yawning, I guess we should go back to what happened the day before.

- 24 hours ealier -

Friday.
just finished my classes and hanging out with the flair guild. (this org that focuses on flair bartending.) I asked my girl friend to teach me some moves.. you know maneuvering bottles with your hands. yes, kinda like juggling. Then I remembered my friend asking me if I wanted to attend this party. and I do, but I needed 200 bucks. In times of utmost desperation, I find myself literally begging my brother for help. Trust me, this is so unlikely of me. I never asked my brothers for anything all my life and this is already the 2nd time. The 1st was a couple of summers ago when I needed some cash to go on a road trip with friends up north. Thankfully he pulled through and I went.. I guess there's really no need for an elaborate description of how the party went.. all I know is, I had fun. got home round 3? and with a 5am call time at school, all I had was an hour long power nap ahead of me. surreal enough, I watched Burlesque in between that time line.

back to Saturday.
so yeah, after the movie our stay at mall of asia basically consisted of long walks, awkward silence, sea side, and yeah we got lost.. separated from our friends. but in the end it turned out to be more like of a bonding solitude with my girl friend. good thing we got back to our group just in time for departure. When we got home, the group decided to waste the night away at the local pub. and so we did. To my own surprise, my drowsiness was swept like the wind but still there. So just after a couple of cocktail towers and beer I already got tipsy. We all had fun. The getting to know stage with my girl friend and blockmates. lol.

Sunday.
too tired..... just slept all day.

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Anyway, I have more but I guess this post is getting unusually long. I'm just happy to say.. I'm good. great! Living life. With valentines tomorrow.. college fair... and davao for the weekend! so much to look forward this week. :)

Good Life..

life turned quite unexpectedly these last couple of days.

wed - I was officially admitting to myself that I'm over my last girl. Opening my heart to new possibilities.

thurs - We didnt have any classes, the faculty went out of town or something.. so with a couple of pals and friends of pals we had a pool party. At first I was a bit uptight, if you may call it at that. I'm not really a lax person when it comes to meeting new people. But with booze, karaoke, heightened diving, we let loose and had fun. In the midst of the drunken revelry, I found myself hand in hand with this girl.. and together we dived. Ofcourse pals started teasing and hence the introduction. Afterwards went to an after party at the local pub. then met with an old friend at ice monster.

fri - the usual hungover. good thing my class was not until noon.

oh and yeah, I got a mild concussion.. or atleast I think it was. I bumped my head while swimming. When I surfaced, I literally got dazed and confused. Didnt bleed as much but had this slightly open wound in my forehead.

as if fate opened a door as I closed an old one. I met this pretty awesome girl. We share a few interests.. music, online games lol. and there may be a possibility of something more.. but I dunno yet. I'll let you know if something goes.

Loner with a highly evolved defense mechanism..

My rules for survival are simple. Don't stand out, never raise your hand in class and no drama.

you know how people say that 1st impressions are important? well I guess I'm not really one of them until I hear what other people think of me when they 1st met me. people perceive me as pretty bad ass, a rocker, that I might have been a member of a punk rockband, an emo. That I give off this kind of resonating aura. Well I asked this girl I liked and she said "smart, good looking, englisero." Ofcourse when asking people close to you they would only say the good qualities and skip out on the downside. Then last night some pals told me that our classmates were afraid of me. so I was like "whut?". Apparently some of 'em find me unapproachable, so serious all the time that they would think twice before talking to me under pain of physical violence. lol. well personally I think it's kinda cool but I guess in the long run it'll be a bummer. maybe I should work on that and break some of my own rules for a change.

Blissful days ended to start again..

So here's what you missed these last few days on me..

sports fest, a 3 day affair. no classes but we're still required to meet with our professors for attendance. pretty much sucky and boring since I didn't join any games and our department doesn't really have one of those solid support system called cheer leading. But enjoyed bonding with new pals over karaoke, swim plans and booze.

nightlife, still awesome. meeting up with call center friends for midnight snacks / yosi break. more like for them. lol. strolling the highway on fast-paced motorbikes. oh and I witnessed another accident. I was crossing the street when this 10 wheeler truck literally fell over in front of me. It was like 3 o'clock in the morning and it was dead silent. I think it took me like 5 mins to process what just happened then joined the gathering crowd to see if the driver is alright. Surreal enough, it was in moments like those that I somehow feel alive you know. not that I enjoy seeing people suffer, it's just a lingering reminder that life is short. we gotta "Live like we're dying!" (music)

just another awesome weekend ahead. t'morrow classes resume and I just got swim class in the morning.. then party night. gonna meet with new pals and brood over awesome music and a beer tower. Sunday, got brunch with the family then hopefully go hang at my Alma mater with old friends.

~if only I have a camera to document and share my life experiences.. >_<

Literested...

my all time favorite subject.. English. wherever school I am at, it's like my thing. I'm a speaker, you know I'm actually good at spontaneous public speaking. But I can't say the same when it comes to writing. >_<

Today we had this assignment.. we were asked to bring 20 assorted pics (with ourselves included in 'em of course) and write this paper: our life ladder. basically an outline of the stuff we've been through since we were born. literally, so we all had trouble trying to remember what we were up to when we were like what 2,3 years old and onwards. Then we placed it all in an envelope along with our contact details. We were asked to form a circle, then counter clock wise we passed our envelopes along. When the counting stopped, the owner of the envelope that lands in our hands would be the subject of our next paper. So basically, using the stuff inside (life ladder, pics) we're gonna write a biography of that particular classmate. Personally I find the activity awesome. But on second thought, it'll be tough. I'm acquainted with the one I got but on a personal level I dunno the person one bit. Then again, I guess that's the whole point. To get to know that person. good thing the one who got mine is a girl, it'll be weird if another dude started staring on my pics and stalk me on the net. lol. So anyway using the vague details I better start conceptualizing how to do this thing.. 15 pages!

Oh and yeah, it's our sports fest this week. I didn't want to make a fool out of myself so I didn't try-out for any sport. >_< I'm not really knowledgeable nor experienced when it comes to sports, that's why I just play for fun.

Fail Sunday...

well let's see,, for three consecutive days basically the weekend, gigs are all fail. friday, I was suppose to meet my pals for a party in commonwealth = fail. saturday, I had swim class in the morning. awesome. took time to drip and stretch. afternoon had a tour guiding seminar. was suppose to meet my pals for a drink = fail. well sorta. only one came through which is well okay, had pizza and beer. came sunday morning, bit hungover on coffee. burned some movies I downloaded then watched with the family.. went to this lot we own at burol,taytay to check it out and had a family picnic. I was hopping to jog with pals = but fail. as usual no reply from the kids. well I guess being optimistic has its limits. all of this gig-advocacy thing I had going on is giving me a headache. >_<

what a stressful weekend.

love DRUNK!

literally. saturday night as usual, is party night with pals. I went out to the local bar and met up with my pals from campus. everything is going smooth, ambience, beer, cool music.. all is well until this girl I like, as in really-like brought her new "guy". So ofcourse I played it cool but inside I was basically messed up. All I was sure of that night, I wanna binge drink. Next thing I new, I was high* and already drunk texting people. Which was a first time for me, I guess I vented out even though I didnt realize what I was doing. As every night should end, I walked home drunk...

Next thing I realized, I was in my room talking to a friend on the phone. funny, I dont even remember talking or calling anyone. Then darkness..

I woke up a couple of hours later hungover, which is just right because I have to go to school for nstp(on a sunday who does that?) so I mustered all my strength and took in all hungover remedies known to man. >_< Realizing what I have been texting to people last night, a sudden rush of shame engulfed me. I hoped no one remember anything too.

I spent the rest of the day at marikina, I sprinted at the park, hangout at starbucks & just enjoyed the cool weather hoping I wont run into anyone I knew and.. maybe to forget what I felt.

WHAT IF...

This morning I got a text message from a friend, a very enticing proposition for a summer getaway. But like every trip, it needs a suitable amount to finance and without a steady income I highly doubt I could accumulate such an amount in 3 months. That really bums me out, this might be the 1^st time I’d miss out on a summer trip with friends. I’m not really a thinker you know, I mean the kind of person who would plan ahead instead I would go all like “I’ll just cross that bridge when I get there.” Like the summer of 2010, we had an out of town trip and I needed cash. I didn’t stress over it so the day before departure I literally had to beg my brother for cash so I can go. I guess he just gave me some because that was the 1^st time I ever asked him for anything and that was the time when I was cooped up at home for months so I guess he understood my need to getaway and unwind. But I doubt I could do so again for this summer. I’ll have to figure it out... and soon.

INVESTMENT...

The previous year, I survived with my social life intact using this old battered china phone that I got from an aunt. Some buttons are already missing, the battery is faulty, had dysfunctional speakers and a damaged LCD. It was pretty much a pain especially when I have to contact my friends on a gig. Until a couple of days ago, in the middle of a very important phone call it just gave out and literally fell apart. The obvious and logical option left was to get a new one.

Counting my expenses the past New Year parties and from a couple of wreck less shopping there is very little left of my Christmas earnings. Maybe I can’t afford a cool camera phone but I had enough to get a functional one which is good enough for me as long as I can call and text people.

As I charged the nearby retailer, I was counting on the cheapest one out on the market which is a model from Cherry Mobile but unfortunately they were out of stock. So I had to go with the next one which costs more than my allotted budget but still within my price range… this pretty cool, slim, sleek (and it’s black!) Samsung Cell.

Even though I’m flat broke (so what else is new) again, it was worth it. That evening I was heading out to meet a couple of pals and for a change it was pretty convenient to communicate with them compared with the one I used before. I feel better connected than ever. A new year, a new cell, that’s what I can call a good investment.

What I will NOT not do this 2011...

I guess its never to late for a "Happy New Year!"

Well, you know how people at the start of the new year make all sorts of lists.. wishlist, bucket list, particularly lists that pertain to things that one wants to change with one's self. Me, I was not really a believer of writing down one on a piece of paper when I was younger (or in our generation's case, to type it down) but I guess change can be good, for the better so let me write one right now. >_<

~WALK OF SHAMEs.
you know what I'm talking about, no more sneaking out of somebody's room after spending the night... playing. lol.

~BUFF up.
let's face it, I'm not getting any younger. I should start to take care of myself. well I've already tried jogging every morning, playing sports in a weekly basis, maybe I'll just keep to to that routine and start being more health conscious. Goodbye scrawny emo kid from highschool.

~DRUNKOREXIA
well college is a phase where everyone get to experience, experiment and basically have fun. back then my friends and I party everyday (and sorta still today.) lol. the point is, having nothing to eat all day then drink all night. In all reality not healthy for my body.

~RELATIONSHIP status
I guess I'm just at that point of my life where hook-ups, casual flings, and friends with benefit does not suit me anymore. I wanna have someone to talk to, share my feelings with and share awesome day to night experiences. so Offficially I'm putting myself on the market and change that single status.

So I guess that's just about it.. for now. I wont be one of those people who put up long lists but never get to accomplish them. I'll start with these and hopefully when I look back I can say "Hey! I got to stick with my resolutions this year!" Mine's not really a walk in the park, but if I start now one step at a time I just might get lucky at the last one.. ;)

Wishlist 2010..

Well I guess in true december tradition, its just about time to put up a wishlist and this time it will be much more practical and well affordable (more like realistic) than last year's so that it can be more easily referred to by some willing and very generous people out there. lol.

1. Alarm clock.
I seriously need to sate the universal need to wake up early, one big solution to my tardiness. I guess the "always late" guy is so last season.

2. Coffee Mug.
yes. my ultimate guilty pleasure. coffee 24/7. it so got out of hand that I started taking these calcium pills to counteract the bad effects of too much caffeine. >_<

3. 2011 journal.
I was skeptical at those stuff last year, I mean with all the technology around I would never guessed that I would be needing to keep one for myself. busy geek me.

4. Messenger bag.
just my kind. It will be nice to have a new one, as opposed to what I'm currently using for like almost 3 years. Black knitted thing, that actually belonged to my mom.. ssshh.

5. Parker pen refill.
I've been using this cool parker pen for the past I dunno almost 4 years? I'm not exactly sure, but I feel its gonna start to run dry soon.

6. CAn of lysol spray.
This year, we got 3 new dogs. roaming all around the house. so if you could only imagine the stench every morning when I get up for school. +_+

7. any RPG cd.
well being the comic geek, I spend most of my time playing video games. but dont get me wrong I have a social life. lol.

8. any series dvd.
preferably bros & sisters season 3 and 4? just got cliff hanged with the family drama the other week and i'm on the edge on finding a copy myself but (to my surprise) I cant find the time.

9. a good old Novel.
I'm already on the 6th out of (so far) 12 books of the wheel of time series. I inherited the fantasy fiction mania from my brothers. >_<

10. JOSE CUERVO.
a good holiday never goes without booze! specially if I'll be part of SMP.. samahang malamig ang pasko. lol.

so there you have it folks. 10 things this kid wants for christmas.. good hunting!

Good Ol' days..

I HATE it when classes get cancelled.

Here I am, 7 o'clock in the morning, all dressed, ready to go and when I was about to head out I received a text saying my one and only morning class got cancelled. Dang it. I got so stressed out, I drank two cups of coffee and now high on caffeine waiting out by my cell for some darn good news of a miraculous last-minute gig or something.

I remember when I used to love having no classes, back in highschool waking up in a rainy morning and standing by the television waiting for an announcement of suspension. Then I would shout for joy then jump right back into bed. I miss that.

Yes, I know what I sound like these past few days.. Like some desperate, whiny house kid that complains and mopes alot. lol.>_< Just being realistic though, hopefully something interesting would come up soon. Some positive feedback would also help, if only.

Hey it's almost december. The family's not really into the "holiday" mood. All we got is the usual christmas tree that we own like since forever and just that traditional series of dinners with relatives. What I really look forward to every christmas season(no not just booze and lonely chicks) , is the food trip!

Every night I would go downtown and indulge in local delicacies like puto bungbong & bibingka. Then there's.. Breakfast Club with college pals, that's simbang gabi for us. I would wake up 4am every morning, grab a cab and meet up by Something Fishy at eastwood. Breakfast buffet then a couple of beers. After like 9 or something, we would play RockBand at katipunan then head out to class. It was awesome.

Ah the good ol' days. December 2010, what up?

SOLICE..

Daily life is as always boring at the guadalupe manor.. I would usually wake up, drink coffee, go to school, go home, sleep, then the cycle starts all over again. I know the semester just started but I feel it's gonna be a long and empty one. I'm too broke to go out and gallavant all over the metro with my pals, I don't have internet access at home so that makes life sucks over here and well most of my school friends had trasferred to the higher ups so I cant help but feel exiled up here. This is what I do most of the time now, listen to music, brood over coffee while I write in my disfunctional laptop and when I get the chance I would update my blog.

The past couple of weeks, I've been trying to bury myself with academics but.. (bragging aside) I'm kinda unchallenged with the workload, I guess that's just expected being 1st year again technically. Usually by this time you'll find me in some ragtag bar and doing shots with blockmates or maybe roadtripping to some cool places. (yes with an awesome sense of pride) Despite all of that last sem, I had a 1.75 gpa. LOL. That's me, serious in academics and in partying. But this time around, I dunno. Things are still unraveling.

I just feel left-out you know, everybody else seems to be moving on. Most of my friends are already in their third year and some already graduating. Some of them would head out to work, find their passions and just live out their lives. Me, I'm still at the exact same place when I graduated high school 3 years ago. Still the same kid who's unsure of his place in the world.

Nope, I dont wanna drown myself in self pity and linger with the ghosts of my past. As I watch the sunset, all I can do is remain hopeful. Tomorrow will be another day. Life can be a bitch, you'll never know what will hit you and wether it's a good thing or a bad thing, that's up to you to decide. Risk it, that's what make life... well life.