So this is crazy. Kris Allen's Live like we're dying, just wont stop ringing in my head these past few days. Even at this moment:
"Yeah… gotta start
Lookin at the hand of the time we’ve been given here
This is all we got and we gotta start pickin it
Every second counts on a clock that’s tickin’
Gotta live like we’re dying"
I just go like whoaa. But sometimes it just get to me, the things you can't think through the blur will start to feel clear, problems seem to wash away, the sun looks brighter as I walk by katipunan and music in heart I just can't help but smile. Then I start to have a very good day and it just keeps better.
Happiness. A feeling I'm just starting to acquaint myself with. But despite the happy-go-lucky life in the metro and some good show tunes, an empty void clots through the system that only the company of friends can fill.
So here it goes.. Laptop crashed, rendering it useless for a couple of months. Bro lends a hand then laptop's back online. Just after a couple of peaceful months, back to square one. Laptop's hardrive got fried again. (annoyed) So now I'm back to that lovely habit of mine. In the middle of the night, I would catch a jeepney to katipunan and rent some comp usage just to go online.
Some would find that habit of mine very hustle but hey, upside I get to enjoy the cool wind outside, get to grab some awesome coffee at starbucks and guilty fries at mcdo. Thus proving a pal's theory that I tend to get optimistic sometimes. What really sucks though, is losing all the files and programs. Specially my beloved music, I'll be damned for losing hundreds of songs I handpicked & downloaded over the months.. now I'm back to ol' & reliable radio and mix cd's.
So what I'm busying myself about.. I'm working on some papers at town hall for the small business start up that my aunt will finance for me. So far.. filing papers in different offices and gathering requirements is a b!tch but I guess it'll all be worth it once the place is up and running. So I grew fond with my mum's praise in how I keep my social life out & about despite being phoneless & just recently, internet-less (again). All I came to say was: "Hey, Look at me." LOL.
Promising weekend ahead. Advocacy events up, parties and benefit movie at eastwood. see you around kidss!
A month back I started on working out. You know, starting to be more health-fit conscious. I run around the park every morning and I try with utmost difficulty, to watch what I eat. lol.
Coffee. One of my Liked- drinks, have it every brunch and sometimes even midnight. Then again, being fit conscious made myself to believe that it's toxic. So for months now, I've been caffeine free. But one of the re precautions I noticed: I was less productive without it. I used to write and scribble around, not much of a work but I play around with a lot of ideas. A bum of a work ethic, they called. So now I'm starting to fall to the temptations of caffeine again, and now I'm starting to balance out it all.
These past few days I've been having nights of "harmless fun". Taking on the metro like there's no tomorrow. But more to what I can admit, it's all a camouflage. In truth I've been jealous. I'm jealous of the people around me waking up in the morning and goes to work and school. I miss the morning rush and working up late. So I guess I've been trying to make myself not to think and just go out, live like we're dying. Despite how much I deny myself missing the people close to me, I really do and all I can do is watch & be happy for 'em.
So this is crazy. Kris Allen's Live like we're dying, just wont stop ringing in my head these past few days. Even at this moment:
