new year, new you..

Looking at the mirror now, makes me see how much I've changed over the past year. I see myself anew, a shadow of what once was. I see triumphs and accomplishments. But I also see regrets and mistakes.. Decisions, If hadn't made, I wouldn't be the person I am now.

09 was an eventful year. Filled with unexpected twists & ironies. But most especially for our age group, debuts.. They have been a tradition in the Philippines, whenever a girl turns 18, a big party is thrown (technically) for the parents to introduce their daughter into the social society. But for the youth today, a good reason to suit up, shop, and party.

This year has also been tough, trials & challenges I faced, took their toll but I made it through. Making me a stronger person, able to face the stale reality of life. I learned a great deal, not just about myself,but also with the people around me and in so, having a more existential grasp over life.

09 was not without tragedies. The typhoons that ravaged the Philippine populace.. Homes were destroyed & lives taken. So much loss, pain was asunder. But like a phoenix rise upon the ashes, the Philippines united with clasped hands and helped in the relief effort for our countrymen. Then there was the death of the beloved president Cory Aquino. An inspiring leader, who in her time fought for democracy. The country once again united in mourning and feel for the Aquino family's lost and missed yearning for.. a mother's love.

The year was all about trials & challenges, what matters is not the outcome but how we handle 'em, ourselves & the climb. Everything happens for a reason, I believe that.. For what really important is that we emerge neither win nor lose, but that the lessons we learn afterward, and the experience, help us be a much better person.

2010 holds so much promise. But no matter how much we put ourselves into writing new year resolutions, it would all mean nothing if we wouldn't act ourselves upon 'em. A new year, a new start, a new you..

reD gaTe..

Since I've been a kid, I'm not only forced to take music lessons by my music teach at school but also my mom. But to my great regret now, I ditched all of them. Piano, Drums, and voice..

So you know that I'm musically inclined. Or at least by blood now, runs in the family. A brother and his wife are both music professors at the UP college of music, and my mother's really a good singer.

So now, I only linger with the thought that "I could've been" this really cool and awesome musician by now. Garsh. Well, we couldn't change the past now but only make a better future.

I've always been told that I have a good voice. period. Only potential. But With raw & untrained talent alone, is insufficient. So professional musician, crossed out.

Lately I've been into the recording business. A new dream spured. Red gate records. A dream of starting my own record label. I may not be a good musician now, but I still do love music. I can start a new path in helping others develop their talent and produce their music into the world for people to listen, enjoy, and help make a difference in their lives.

So why red gate you may ask, because ours is one. Quite meaningful for me, back then when I was this scrawny and rebellious kid from puberty's past. I've always been kept behind that gate for years and I only had my music to keep me company. Now I am grown up and able ,both physically and by right to either go in and out of that red gate.

Maybe I can takeover my brother's music studio someday, or better yet.. Start from scratch and build a better one. In our lives, there are risks we just gotta take. For in a world so full of potential and uncertainty, we all just gotta step up and take a chance.

Fireflies..

As he was about to emerge from his peaceful slumber, he can hear "fireflies" by owl city playing over the radio. He started to yawn and rubb his eyes. It was barely 6o'clock am and it was still dark out. He started to sit up, then his eyes widened..

He saw a single speck glowing in mid air. whoa, he thought. "One, two three.." Three glowing dots. "wait, no." They were now hovering around his room. "Fireflies." He said in admiration.

He sat there mystified as the chorus of the song played. I like to make myself believe, that planet earth turns slowly.. He continued to watch the fireflies dance around his room. He felt quite transcendent. That morning was most magical.

~ Tried to write like the way I used to do back in the multiply-blogging days. haha. Only to make me realize how mind whacking and slothful it can get.