Post Valentine Disorder..

2 years ago I made this mix cd for my friends as a xmas gift.. entitled “Friends, Lovers, or Nothing”. I was then in a very emotional state, I lost two women I cared about. One I loved from afar, she never turned back.. and the other loved me, but I hurt her by failing to give back. Then here I am, years later.. finding myself in the same emotional state. Maybe not in the same situation, but the same ordeal of the heart.

This is what I love about music. It is transcendent. It is timeless. It is.. truth.

This month.. I found love, more like it found me. It is not planned and just sorta happened. First couple of weeks was awesome, we had fun, made new friends, but in the long run I started to question myself. We share interests true, but we don’t connect, personally in so many levels.. no spark. Thus my decision to just remain friends.. I wont hurt her anymore by leading her on. Save the friendship, save our group, to save the good times we spend together.

If there’s anything I learned this month, is that love is not just about the fun, the adventure, the drama or the parties you share together, but when you both share this very unique and deep connection that is beyond words. You feel it.. with your heart.

day of the Yawn..

1- vb
1. to open the mouth wide and take in air deeply, often as in involuntary reaction to tiredness, sleepiness, or boredom

source: dictionary.com

Saturday.
I think I never yawned so many times before that I literally had to struggle to keep myself awake. I mean, I find myself at smx convention center for chefs-on-parade.. interested on watching this kitchen demo with this Belgian chef and I just cant stop myself from dozing off. It's embarrassing really with the room filled with fellow students and young professionals. Then there's that ambush double date at mall of asia, that some friends orchestrated just so we (me and this girl friend of mine) have some supposed time together.. they got us tickets for My Valentine Girls. The entire what.. 2 hour duration of the film, I like yawned for every 5 minutes.. not exactly the romantic mood they were trying to give us. To understand the yawning, I guess we should go back to what happened the day before.

- 24 hours ealier -

Friday.
just finished my classes and hanging out with the flair guild. (this org that focuses on flair bartending.) I asked my girl friend to teach me some moves.. you know maneuvering bottles with your hands. yes, kinda like juggling. Then I remembered my friend asking me if I wanted to attend this party. and I do, but I needed 200 bucks. In times of utmost desperation, I find myself literally begging my brother for help. Trust me, this is so unlikely of me. I never asked my brothers for anything all my life and this is already the 2nd time. The 1st was a couple of summers ago when I needed some cash to go on a road trip with friends up north. Thankfully he pulled through and I went.. I guess there's really no need for an elaborate description of how the party went.. all I know is, I had fun. got home round 3? and with a 5am call time at school, all I had was an hour long power nap ahead of me. surreal enough, I watched Burlesque in between that time line.

back to Saturday.
so yeah, after the movie our stay at mall of asia basically consisted of long walks, awkward silence, sea side, and yeah we got lost.. separated from our friends. but in the end it turned out to be more like of a bonding solitude with my girl friend. good thing we got back to our group just in time for departure. When we got home, the group decided to waste the night away at the local pub. and so we did. To my own surprise, my drowsiness was swept like the wind but still there. So just after a couple of cocktail towers and beer I already got tipsy. We all had fun. The getting to know stage with my girl friend and blockmates. lol.

Sunday.
too tired..... just slept all day.

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Anyway, I have more but I guess this post is getting unusually long. I'm just happy to say.. I'm good. great! Living life. With valentines tomorrow.. college fair... and davao for the weekend! so much to look forward this week. :)

Good Life..

life turned quite unexpectedly these last couple of days.

wed - I was officially admitting to myself that I'm over my last girl. Opening my heart to new possibilities.

thurs - We didnt have any classes, the faculty went out of town or something.. so with a couple of pals and friends of pals we had a pool party. At first I was a bit uptight, if you may call it at that. I'm not really a lax person when it comes to meeting new people. But with booze, karaoke, heightened diving, we let loose and had fun. In the midst of the drunken revelry, I found myself hand in hand with this girl.. and together we dived. Ofcourse pals started teasing and hence the introduction. Afterwards went to an after party at the local pub. then met with an old friend at ice monster.

fri - the usual hungover. good thing my class was not until noon.

oh and yeah, I got a mild concussion.. or atleast I think it was. I bumped my head while swimming. When I surfaced, I literally got dazed and confused. Didnt bleed as much but had this slightly open wound in my forehead.

as if fate opened a door as I closed an old one. I met this pretty awesome girl. We share a few interests.. music, online games lol. and there may be a possibility of something more.. but I dunno yet. I'll let you know if something goes.